As I did last year, I'm moving. My blog that is.
11:49 p.m.
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Happy new year. May everyone have a better year ahead than I (if you are not taking something as DISGUSTING as the A level examinations).
09:39 p.m.
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Wow I'm rather relieved our skit and walk-in actually pieced together nicely (: And our attire is so spunky. LOVELY.
Anyway, thank you YEEEAAA for that oh-so-pink-and-gorgeous clutch! It's absolutely perfect. I love it! And I love you guys :D
11:38 p.m.
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05:52 p.m.
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OGL camp today! It was quite, long. But tomorrow is way longer. 0700h-1900h. Anyways, we did mass dance today. Quite fun. Our war games was cut short, no thanks to the heavy (but short-lived) downpour. I was the guru (what the target is called) today, and was wrapped up in newspaper. As my fellow Lynovians tried to keep me dry, I hovered under layers of stinky dirty newspaper, trying to breathe through the thick insulation. Boy was it warm.
Anyways, I'm all excited about orientation now!
I've been here before a few times
10:25 p.m.
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Christmas is boring. School is starting. Homework is unfinished. Can life get any better.
10:32 p.m.
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I absolutely HATE the 'delete all' messages function. Cos I just deleted ALL my inbox messages by accident of course and I'm super upset. This is like the first time for my panasonic. I've done it several times on my samsung. And it's SO SO SO pisssing. I'm gonna cry I swear. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
11:25 a.m.
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Daddy's and Nic's birthday today. Woo. Anyway, did my XMAS shopping. Now I'm broke. But christmas is about giving (:
Just about, FOUR MORE HOURS till Ms Valencia Tjitra touches down in Singasingapore! OMGOOODNESS.
I did not need that
09:28 p.m.
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THANKS for all the birthday wishes everyone! Thanks for the presents! And special thanks to Gerry, Hui, Angel, Stelli, Lea, Sis & Mom for having lunch with me (:
Just to list, THANK YOU: Jean, Bel, Cheryl Kee, Melody, Xiu Yi, Khairi, Eric, Eleanor, Yoke Teng, David Lee, Jia Min, Lin Rui, Dinah, Lisa, Sui Hang, Louisa, Neek, Xiu Jing, Melvin, Jasmine, Shuan P, Alfred, Jun Kiat, Eileen, Benjamin, Hui Lin, Angel, Gerry, Krystle, Ker Min, Andre, Valen, Swei, Aly (:
11:15 p.m.
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Just watched The Nutcracker by SDT. Ooh la la it was really good! (: A thousand times better than Imperial whatever Russian Ballet. Haha watched with NEEK & JEAN! (: We smuggled gummy bears into the theatre and were snacking away!
Anyways, the holidays are coming to an end. Like how depressing is that! ):
One soul, two hearts
11:44 p.m.
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War games this morning. It's getting so bland. ): And mass dance afterwards. It's rather fun. The carwash one is cute. Dance tomorrow, hope we actually start on choreography!
I can't wait forever
09:22 p.m.
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I'm back from Bali! It was AWESOME, wicked awesome! But I don't think it was Bali that was great, it was Club Med Bali that rocked. If I had stayed in Sheraton or Hyatt I doubt I would have enjoyed myself that much.
CLUB MED is amazing. The atmosphere is lovely. Everyone is like a big family and everyone knows one another and I don't know, you just feel warm & fuzzy all the time (: Oh and one big plus factor must be the food. There's like, unlimited supply of DESSERTS. How wonderful is that for chocoholic nat. And the activities were great too. I did snorkelling, kayaking (HAHA), and the main highlight is the flying trapeze! Sounds awesome right! Never though I would get to do the trapeze ever. Not that I was ever that keen on it. But I'm glad I did it (: With much persuasion from everyone of course, but I still did it! And every night there's a different theme & dress code. So every night at the theatre they'll hold some kinda performance. There was a circus show, comedy show, and I can't remember what else. But they were all really entertaining and good. The best thing is that when the staff goes in front to dance EVERYONE stands up and follows and dances. Including the Singaporeans and that's quite a surprise. Haha.
Yea so I sound like some freaking advertisement for Club Med, but next time if I go anywhere and there is a Club Med there, I wouldn't stay any place else! I swear it was one of my favourite holidays like ever ever ever!
I'll miss the place, and the people of course! Met some nice people, all the GOs of course, and this nice Australian family, and fellow Singaporeans who were so hilarious & fun to be with (: For now, I guess I'll complete my LAST YEAR OF SCHOOL first (Poopy)! That sounds cool, last year of school. I don't really count college as school. Whatever. Dance tomorrow! Starting on cultural night stuff I guess. Whee.
06:10 p.m.
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Yesterday
Today And umm, sad to say I don't think it's that great. Compared to last year's CNY item, SYF, and Open Day it's quite a stinker. No guys, all girls, super slow, very un-festive and slightly monotonous. But no worries, cultural night items will be fucking awesome I bet. What with Su lao coming back to choreograph and all! (: And Wang Da will probably put in more effort. GO NJCD!
I'm going Bali tomorrow. I hope it's safe! :/ If anything should happen ( HOLY MOLY I'm touching the whole Amazon of WOOOD now!), may there be world peace, I LOVE EVERYONE :D
Out with Lea & Stelli! :D It was AWESOME ! Reddies / EEA (: Haha we walked from one end of town to another. And Lea walked to Far East from Orchard MRT for the first time, and ate Subway for the first time. HAHA.
Dance. Finally, after more than a month. We have all lost our steam. After warm up, we were all freaking SHAGGED already. Haha, pathetic I know. Anyway, we completed Chinese New Year dance today. It's really short. Wang Da said he wanted us to choreograph ourselves, but we said we wanted him! So he said, okay but it'll be a low quality one.
10:06 p.m.
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The confusing mist that has clouded my mind these past few days has finally cleared up. Woosh, gone, evaporated! Thank God, cos it was making me awfully messed up. & I figured it out all on my own. (: yay.
I have really weird dreams. Hmm I dream of people so ancient I should have forgotten them long ago. Let's hear some Christmas cheer! (:
09:35 p.m.
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Fake Plastic Trees / Radiohead
A green plastic watering can
That she bought from a rubber man
It wears her out, it wears her out
She lives with a broken man
He used to do surgery
And it wears him out, it wears him out
She looks like the real thing
But I can't help the feeling
And it wears me out, it wears me out
And if I could be who you wanted
For a fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out, it wears her out
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
On girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins
It wears him out, it wears him out
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
It wears me out, it wears me out
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time
09:45 p.m.
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I'm bored. Because I've been home all day. Pigging out at the same time. That's why I hate my house, too much junk food. Gerry gave me things from Japan! (: Sweetums. Anyway ripped this quiz-ish thing off Gerry / Gary the Fairy (:
TEN random things about me:
NINE places I've visited:
The EIGHT part seems to be missing!
SEVEN ways to win my heart:
SIX things that annoy you:
FIVE things I'm afraid of: FOUR of my favorite things in my bedroom:
THREE things I do everyday:
TWO things I want to do right now:
ONE person I want to see right now:
1. I like pink
2. I'm gaga over Harry Potter
3. I dance
4. I eat a lot of chocolate
5. I like GOLD (bling)
6. I have a (very) pink phone
7. I'm Malayasian
8. I'm a lazy person
9. I was from CHIJ St Nicholas!
10. I'm in National JC now :D
1. Lumut, Malaysia (yay)
2. New Jersey, USA
3. Melbourne, Australia
4. Beijing, China
5. London, UK
6. Bintan, Indonesia
7. Phuket, Thailand
8. Sentosa
9. Florida, USA
1. Be Rupert Grint
2. Buy many mini m&ms and pick out all the pink ones
3. Sweet-sugared-diabetic talk
4. Bake cookies
5. Show care & concern
6. Be at all my performances with flowers
7. Make me laugh
1. Ah lians
2. Desperate people
3. Ah bengs
4. Mosquitos
5. People with nice bodies
6. Copycats
1. Cockroaches
2. Supernatural forces
3. Lizards
4. Growing fat
5. Not growing upwards anymore
1. My eyemask
2. My laptop
3. My tempur pillow
4. My spongebob cuddler
1. Come online
2. Text
3. Eat chocolate
1. Go on a holiday (USA / Japan)
2. Eat subway
1. VALENCIA TJITRA CHI BAO XIN
08:37 p.m.
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Grad night last night! It was really good. It was fun to organise, but I guess even fun-ner to be the seniors huh! Imagine, months of freedom ahead. WOOHOO. One more long & tedious year to go ):
10:33 a.m.
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Back! (: Okay call me moronic but this entry is gonna totally contradict the one below. OBS was wicked fun. I have a new perspective of OBS now. Haha. Okay it would be too tedious to do a day by day analysis. So in short, there were two expeditions, Sea Ex and Land Ex.
Sea Ex was kayaking for 3 days 2 nights. A total of 50 km. YIKES. So we kayaked for a day, then set up camp at Pulau Lalang. Set off the next morning for Pangkor island and camped there too. The beach was beautiful, especially when you know you got there yourself. Like paddled yourself there through big waves and strong winds bearing blisters and sea sickness.
Land Ex was harder for most of us. We climbed Mount Bubu. I was really freaked by the leeches at first. But I got used to them. They're quite fascinating actually. I got around 10 bites, but only 4 left gross scars. Nice momento huh. :D We climbed for about 8 hours to our campsite and night fell so that made it extra hard. The next day we climbed to the summit. It was kinda vertical, SUPER FUN. You had to use all four limbs! Wicked fun. The air was much cooler and you could see clouds below you. Mount Bubu is one of the highest mountains in Malaysia I heard. We descended back to camp and continued the descent back to base camp on the third day.
So that was just a very short summary. I admit I was really sad to leave. But really excited to come back home too! I must really thank the people there who helped me make it through. It was really tough, very tough. But I'm darn glad I completed it. Thanks to the instructors, Ben, Char, Loreen & Kelvin especially. Grad night tomorrow.
Scars & memories that remain
10:40 p.m.
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Congrats to all my dearest juniors (especially YEEEAAA) for completing those annoying Ordinary Level exams! (: Well no congrats to me. I'm going for a 10-day OBS Lumut trip tomorrow. Yes, I'm outward-bound. Yes, Nat the girl who has a phobia of creepy-crawly thingamajigs is going. Yes, Nat the girl who hates mud & dirt is going. Yes, Nat the girl who needs eyeshades to sleep comfortably is going. Yes, Nat the biggest Harry Potter fan will not be watching the fourth instalment for ten whole days.
On the plus side, I watched it for the fourth time today. How thrilling (: I'm stubborn and stubborn and I don't care about people who say it's not nice. After the movie this BIATCH was like: eee lousy. Sheesh! I turned around and STARED and her. I wanted to gorge those eyes out. But I resisted. Desaru was LOUSY. Lousy weather, lousy hotel. But why am I complaining about a rundown hotel when I'm gonna spend the next ten days without a decent bed. Okay may the bugs and weather be so very kind to me. Leeches please, do not suck me. Rain please go away. I mean I don't like mud. But Sun, not too much please. Just enough to get golden, I don't wanna be roasted. Bye Barbie, Natno, Computer, RUPERT.
10:35 p.m.
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Everyone go catch Harry Potter and the Goblet Of Fire! Ignore the reviews you read in Life! / TODAY. They are inaccurate and are a load of bullcrap! Honestly I'm not being biased. Everyone who's watched the movie thinks it's really good.
Goblet Of Fire lacks fire my ass! Goblet of Fire is FLAMING HOT! :D Kindly refer to this link for more PROFESSIONAL reviews. An excellent review here: It's three times & counting for me!
Rotten Tomatoes
Devin Faraci
I quote: "the movie is effortless and lovely, with a both a charming eye for detail and a vision of grand spectacle.
"-Devin Faraci
08:30 p.m.
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I think it's some unwritten rule that when you watch movies, there MUST be inconsiderate people planted next to you. The more you like the show, the more inconsiderate they get! Anyway, Goblet of Fire was great second time round too (: If I had a third thumb, it'll be up! All hail RUPERT GRINT!
12:07 a.m.
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I AM COMPLETE! (:
But don't ask my opinion, I'm biased & I admit it. I loved it! So intense, so scary, so engaging, so exhilarting, so entertaining, so funny.
tomorrow & tomorrow tomorrow, and tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow!
The right & the easy
10:17 p.m.
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Orange season is here. Rejoice! :D Went supermarketing just now. Oh my goodness all the Christmas specials & special chocolate packaging. I absolutely love CHRISTMAS! I get to write Christmas cards. So if you get a card from me, it means: If you do not get a card I: And what comes after Christmas? Chinese New Year! Oh the guilty pleasures. Oh the blasted brats who got to watch Harry Potter today ):
#1 I LOVE YOU <3
#2 I hate you but I'm being politically correct
#3 I'm okay with you and I'm being nice
#1 Hate you and can't be bothered to be politcally correct with you (But that's highly unlikely! Xmas is a time of GIVING (: )
#2 I've simply forgotten you because I don't love you enough / I'm muddle-headed!
You're awful you know that
09:22 p.m.
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There's something about the colour blue (: Shopping is good. If only I could spend without thinking. That would mean I have to be filthy spanking rich. Oh how superficial I know. But being able to buy anything I wish to have is just the life I want. She makes me green. I like her dress. Food I can live on for the rest of my life:
I don't know why I blogged about that. I was just thinking if someone (with magical powers) made me live on 8 things, those would be it. 

1) Subway turkey breast sub with no onions/ wrap
2) Cookies! Subway chocolate chip / Famous Amos chocolate chip pecan
3) Korean bibimbab WITH KIMCHI PLEASE
4)Sushi. Californian handroll especially
5) Yami Yoghurt! Peach with almonds/ pumpkin seeds or Tropicana
6) Crystal Jade's char siew soh
7) Breadtalk's pork floss bun
8) Ferrero Rocher, Kinder Bueno & Rittersport butter biscuit
Do you really care?
09:54 p.m.
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Yay I've got my phone (: I'm naming it Barbie because it is just SO pink. Haha.
12:33 a.m.
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Nat: Good Afternoon / Morning, would you be interested in making a donation to the Make A Wish Foundation? This is an organisation that grants the wishes of children with life threatening diseases. So that was my day. Doing CIP dressed as a fairy, complete with pink tutu, pink wings, tiara and magic wand. Haha how totally spasticated. But it was all for charity. Isn't Korean mixed rice bibimbap or smth like that, just YUMMY FUMMY :D
SIGH someone else won the second last pair of Harry Potter Gala premiere tickets. ): I sent TWENTY smses but I guess that wasn't enough. I want, WO YAO. I'm feeling really upset, disappointed. I LUBBY RUPERTO.
Aye, I will patiently wait for Shan Wee and suck up to him alot. PLEASE
Anyway, just some of the weird encounters I've had today: Weird ang mohs Reckless cab driver Okay I'm gonna hope & hope that I'll win those coveted gala tickets.
Public: Umm ... No (A 'no thanks' occasionally, or rummaging in the bag for cash sometimes)
Nat: Thanks!
Old perverted man
I was like would you like to donate blah blah. Then he was like, what? So I said Make A Wish! Then he said: My wish is to meet you. OH SLAP YOU CHIKOPEK. He was like 65.
I was at a shop in Raffles City then one came up to me and said: Ni hao. Then another one said: Chi bao le ma. Okay weird dudes
This stupid black top cab almost ran over my sister! It was still green man and he turned in from the other street like super fastly and braked just in time. Hello? Green man. Our turn to walk. Duh. Get a brain you birdbrain cab driver. My mom decided not to call the cab company, I wonder why. We got his lisence plate number!
10:44 p.m.
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Today was Gerry Day :D ! We watched TROY at her house & I fell in love with Greek mythology all over again (: Wow Brad Pitt makes me swoon. He fights like, whoa, so cool! Then she followed me to NJ to hand in my OBS forms. There was quite a heavy downpour. And we were sharing one umbrella, so we got quite wet. Haha, ohh 8DAYS has MISTER DAN RADCLIFFE on the cover!
Then we went down to town. I went to check out my Pink Panasonic beauty (: Oh my gosh it's even more gorgeous in the 'flesh'. I am SO getting it. I didn't get to turn it on so I couldn't see the resolution? But the PINKness is gorgeous enough for me. OOOH but if I do get it, I think I will miss my pink slidey Samsung. Ohkay let me not get my hopes up too high yea!
Oh then we went shoe shopping for Gerry's prom. And we went to take neos too. Oh the machine was a little weird & terribly expensive. I'm telling you neoprint machines are getting more and more expensive. Tsk, ripper-offers. Then we went to eat Subway. Oh Subway is really the best thing to happen to the Fast Food arena. And their cookies are the best ever. I want to cater Subway for my next party! I saw a catering menu and took it. You could get a 60 cookie platter for $45. How awesome is that! Haha. I LOVE SUBWAY :D Yay I love Gerry! Lubby dubby.
I thought love was only true in fairytales
09:31 p.m.
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My arm hurts alot. And I'm freaking pissed. With who else? The only people who can piss me off that bad. Load of bullcrap.
11:57 p.m.
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Goodbye project work! Oral presentation was kinda shitty. The powerpoint part was alright, but Q&A was worse than bangsai. Oh my gosh, I'm telling you I hate answering questions on the spot. Because very unfortunately, I process things rather slowly ): THEREFORE the first things that come out of my mouth are stupid & retarded. Damn.
Okay, I really really want my PINK Panasonic phone! Though I know it's really b i g but who cares, it's really gorgeous (colour)! And the features are pretty awesome. But it's quite unavailable everywhere? I can't seem to find it. Saw it in a hello shop. So I guess i'll go there.
Isn't Julian Hee just the hottest :D
I'm just a shard away from you
08:52 p.m.
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I WANT TO GO TO THE GALA PREMIERE OF HARRY POTTER !
I just came back not long ago from watching the Imperial Russian Ballet's Romeo & Juliet. It was kinda sucky you know. I was terribly disappointed, I mean like after paying a hundred & five freaking bucks, yea. ): Watched with Lisa, Neek, Loo & Jean :D Saw many IPs there! Okay i'm breaking out. Like I've never in my life had pimples before. And it's fucking gross I wanna hide forever. And I'm very prone to influenza. I get the sniffles practically every other day. OH I HAVE TO RANT ABOUT HOW TOTALLY UNFAIR EVERYTHING IS! You know Perfect10 is giving out GOF premiere tickets! So I try to listen in but when I'm listening it never is the right time. And so the one time when Jamie Yeo asked the winning question I was in the freaking shower so I couldn't call, and I didn't know the hotline number anyway ): Jamie: Congratulations you're caller number five! May I please have permission to slap her till she goes deaf? HELLO?! How can you call yourself a TRUE BLUE HP fan if you have not even read the book. Someone who has not even read the book so does NOT deserve to go to the gala premiere. I could have pulled my hair out. GEEEZ. I mean I read the book countless times. I'm an avid fan. I'm a true blue fan. I'm such a big fan it's spastic. I'm such a huge fan I'm partially retarded. I DESERVE TO GO.
Gawd I so desperately want to go the the GALA PREMIERE of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. If anyone has anyway of getting tickets PLEASE tell me. I can pay you like 10 times the normal movie ticket price. I want them so freaking badly. ):
Girl: (Displays her joy)
Jamie: So, who is the actor who plays Harry Potter? (Could there be a more retarded question?)
Girl: Daniel Radcliffe (DUH if she got that wrong she deserves die)
Jamie: Yay! You win a pair of tickets to the GOF gala premiere. You get to watch it three days before everyone!
Girl: (Expresses joy again)
Jamie: So are you a true blue Harry Potter fan?
Girl: YES (very enthusiastically)
Jamie: So have you read the book?
Girl: No (then she giggles)
12:42 a.m.
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Met Alyssa Krystle & XiuJing today! (: We had nice hainanese chicken rice and YAMI YOGHURT. Then we went to Alyssa's Tanglin Club. We watched My Boyfriend is Type B. Haha it was hilarious! I swear it was so funny. The guy is the hugest jerk i've seen.
Anyways, we took neos and hung around after that. Oh and Sparkle's back! This nice family found him and took him in & put up FOUND posters. So totally sweet of them. They had another golden retriever too. Okay tomorrow's gonna be FUN. Precious time with gerrywerryberry :D
09:37 p.m.
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went out with DINAH ; MICHELLE ; GRACE today! :D it was brilliant (: they were all late as usual. and i was strangely early. and we went to fish & co to eat lunch. haha we sat there forever. and Gossiped with a capital G. well that's what a bunch of good girlfriends do together. haha it was fun. michelle left to go design her new room (lucky kid) and i hung around with dinah & grace. town was disgustingly crowded. really packed. i hate that. watching Armageddon now and getting all teary ):
Bones of desire
07:42 p.m.
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new layout soon SOON :D anyways i'm at gerry's now. gonna watch monster-in-law soon. so fun. went blading just now. then the left blade started poking my ankle so i couldn't blade anymore ): blading's fun. gives you nice legs watched ms usa 2005 just now. they're all so barbie-like. mmmm i wanna start my holiday hw soon. the thought of math makes me happy. ugh
Rolling in the dirt
08:34 p.m.
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haha chinese is over! HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALL (:. went out with krystle & xiu jing after school. met chock weihao choo & ben in the bus then lunched together.
we were walking past TCC today and xiu jing was like: oh look that looks like the grim ripper costume! so i went to stare then suddenly it leapt up! it was a real guy haha. i mean before i had time to look closely to see it already popped up. haha. i was like: OH MY GOD! then ran away. so funny. (:
then we caught the legend of zorro. ooh joaquim is SO totally cute. haha. pinch! (: it's not too bad. nice nice. anyway all the harry potter thingys are UP! i was so tempted to steal them away. the big cardboard adverts, so hot. and the nice huge nice posters. there was a security camera & i was in NJ uni. so yea. haha. but omgoodness i'm gonna like write in to the GV management till they get so irritated they give/sell me the stuff. or maybe they'll just sue me. it's worth a try (:
all coming back to me
10:22 p.m.
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katie leung looks quite alright on screen. she has quite a sweet voice. i saw a GOF video clip. omg a lot of excitement is mounting inside me. i think i'm gonna explode soon, whether out of anticipation or just pure glee. HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE :D
tell me what's wrong with society
10:46 p.m.
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being on the otherside of an interview is way more fun. haha. the memories of council interviews suddenly flooded back into my mind when i was interviewing the OGL applicants. i think Lignum was very kind. haha.
anyway, i feel tired & fat. wham bam perfect combi ain't it.
Cause there's a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting
He climbed his ladder
There was nothing there
And now it's a long way down
Fairytales & Castles ; Lifehouse
Bittersweet memories
10:58 p.m.
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horror after lights out! it was great (: yay. i'm glad it's over. it was a huge success. at least to most people :D i'm so proud of char & russ especially for having such a great haunted house & horror trail respectively. anyway i went to kushin-bo just now. omg i think i really BURST. there was so much food and i kept eating. haha well DUH it was a buffet. yumyummy. and i walked past Guess Kids. OMG they have such a cute male model. a KID male model. haha. i finished watching fullhouse today ! :D it's so so so .. haha young jae is so sweet. haha. a real jerk at times. but yea, he's just too childish. heck ji-eun is so pretty. okay PW tomorrow. must chiong. and chinese too. sighh okay.
fairytales & magic castles
11:29 p.m.
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out of pure impulse i signed up for OBS lamut. i don't even know if i spelt lamut correctly and i honestly do NOT care! because i wanna back out. why?
#1. i'm a bloody wimp
the rest i shall not list. okay POA is on HBO now. right now i'm in a super pottery mood. i'm joining the win tickets to the GOF premiere competition. with all the luck in the world i will win and finally get to see the grint of my life (:
#2. it's $850 dollars i don't wanna waste. i don't have edusave anyway
#3. harry potter GOF opens on nov 17. if i leave for OBS i can only watch GOF 4 times. NOT ENOUGH duh
#5. there are leeches
#6. there will be mud
But my heart is always mine
07:55 p.m.
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open day's gonna be a blast, i trust. we were busy packing the goodie bags most of the time. it's awesome. and carrying stuff here and there. hanging banners and posters and such. tomorrow we have lessons. OH goodness i think i've forgotten how to use a pen & write. i don't even know what to bring.
spongebob:
C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G SONG!
and if you don’t think that we can sing it faster then you’re wrong
And as for now
I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
11:17 p.m.
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sigh. i don't know why but i'm not feeling too good nowadays. actually i know why, but i don't wanna admit it. but i just told gerry and only gerry. i love her so much. without ms gerry i don't know what i'll do. i'm at her place now btw. don't make me go back please. so disappointing. I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
i need direction to perfection
09:02 p.m.
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next week is gonna be so HECTIC i might grow a grey hair. pish. but that's what i signed myself up for anyways. so knowing how i would die next week, i went to enjoy myself today. i went shopping but i only spent $29. isn't that sad. i went to the phuture london sale. i'm too fat for most of their clothes, so i bought a nice big chunky khaki totally cute jacket. that covers up instead of hugging me. yay. then i ate a hellload of famous amos cookies. i consumed enough of those sweetsmelling cookies to keep me satisfied for three hours, but enough fat for the next three weeks. oh well. at least i was happy & high on sugar for three hours huh.
mmm, i'm aching all over from dance. yes, i STILL am. and i have to do speed climbing tomorrow. not just rock climbing! SPEED climbing. how do you expect me to climb speedily if i have never rock climbed before! well i have if you count that time during my P5 camp when i climbed like 2 metres above ground level before i got too scared and screamed to get down. UGH. stupid russell. i didn't know he seriously put my name down
anyway i'm currently reading a book now called how to get famous. it's really nice and i borrowed it because i was quite free and SO bored during the weekend, but looking at my schedule for next week, i think i'm gonna get fined by the national library. oh speaking about that, i went to borrow books from the library for the first time since forever, and i realised i have a hefty TWENTY EIGHT DOLLAR fine. so i asked the librarian, when was this from? she said, 2001. OH HOLYY how cool is that. a four year fine for only 28 bucks. not that bad now that i think about it.
Lights will guide you home
08:53 p.m.
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i realised i've been using this layout for really long. since the beginning of 2005. i'll work on a new one. soon. i'm so bored now. i have nothing to do (though that is definitely temporary). next week i will be so busy. gosh, council dance council dance. had dance today. OUCH. we were all aching from yesterday. you know after a long absence from dance, the first day back you won't have much problem. just dance stretch and blah. but it's the NEXT day that's truly deadly. every cell you're made of starts hurting. okay that was exaggerated, but whatever
so we changed the dance a bit here and there. then we went to town to buy lunch. Yami Yoghurt Yum (ooh alliteration!) and subway oooh. then we went to yun hsiu's house to watch some chinese show that wang lao shi got inspiration for our dance from. might i add it was terribly boring. so boring that i fell asleep. haha
from what i could gather, it was about two couples. man A and woman A, man B and woman B. man A's having an affair with women B, women A's having an affair with man B. GOODNESS how much lamer can it get. and i see absolutely no link to our dance. and we're wearing pink cheongsams. haha. it so does not match the dance .
i was so sleepy & drowsy the whole day. FULL HOUSE later! can't wait. i've been waiting all week (: ahhh! it's like the best ever (:
is this more than you bargained for
08:56 p.m.
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wwow this must have been the happiest i've felt for a long time. :D so yea, promos are over. but when i think about my performance, UGH. gross. njc is disgusting. the papers are so awfully hard. teachers, get a life! we aren't geniuses. hello? okay so enough ranting. i shall thoroughly enjoy myself before i get back my stinking results. they will stink more than rotten eggs + spoilt milk. yuck! so today was okay, econs was okay. after that i went out with alywin. watched Into The Blue. didn't really get it sometimes. so violent. haha but cool nonetheless, mainly because Jessica Alba was oh-so-hot!
anyways, then slacked around town alot. i love the internet. i missed it SO much (:
The scent of magic
The beauty that's been
09:33 p.m.
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mmm, my blog's semi-dead. well there really isn't much to talk about. exams exams. whatever. i'm screwed whether i study or not. but don't get me wrong i am studying. but it's without meaning. just reading, memorising (if it actually stays in my head) and practising.
i experienced the MAGIC of peter pan all over again yesterday. i got to once more swoon over jeremy-ooh-la-la-sumpter. and rachel-oh-so-gorgoues-hurd-wood. (: love her accent!
i am tired
as if that ever existed
10:42 p.m.
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I don't care if Monday's blue
Monday you can fall apart
Saturday, wait
I don't care if Monday's black
Monday you can hold your head
Saturday, wait
Dressed up to the eyes
mmm okay i better blog something before blingbling becomes a lyrics site. haha. okay so lately i've been mugging. okay TRYING. i'm a wannabe mugger. woah how awesome is that. i wanna study all day and all night cos it's the coolest thing alive. eyebags are like the HOTTEST new things to have! totally !
the date i'm ultimately looking forward to is the 6th of october! GP & chinese on friday! may my creative juices flow, may my not-so-great vocab become greater. and may i write chinese in chinese sentence structures.
BLAH
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates
Tuesday, Wednesday heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Oh Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
As sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love
Friday I'm In Love / The Cure
10:29 p.m.
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I don't want to go through this life
It'll be you and me
We, we're make believe..
We can build our dreams
It'll be you and me
It'll be you and I
We've got one shot
And I know
awesome song, marty from rockstar inxs! it sounds much better than it umm, reads. haha (: really really! marty's so cool
Without you by my side
And I've got it all worked out
in my head
Here's how it's got to be
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answers
in a world we rule together
with a knot tied tight
to last forever
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answers
up in the sky
it's a combination for disaster
so where do we go from here ?
there's more for us in this life..
Trees / Marty Casey
10:28 p.m.
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mmm, today was i don't know. so stressed about the chocolates. so here's an appeal to everyone. nj council is selling chocolates to fundraise! support us at the canteen daily for the rest of this week!
anyway, some funny things did happen today though. let's see, i was walking to the canteen with russell & celeste. convo after i said something umm intellectual i think: and i spent the whole day trying to increase my IQ points. haha. at the end of the day now it's like negative something i think. hoho
okay then during chem lect the lecturer kept going: sissy bonds (C-C bonds) and HOMO (short for homolysis) hahahaha. i was cracking up. okay well i forgive him for the sissy part cos it isn't that easy to pronounce CC quickly without sounding like sissy, but HOMO? ugh haha
okay and i did duty to sell chocs with russell. so i wrote under councillors on duty: nat and russ. and khairi was like, who's nat and puss? OMGOODNESS. that sounds so sick. hahahahaha. but it's so funny. i kept calling russell a puss after that. okay not funny. okay i've been eating chocs every day. so i'm paying for fundraising for myself? okay, i might as well donate the money.
russell: wow nat! your IQ has increased by 1!
celeste: and that's a how many percentage increase?
russell: mmm INFINITE!
nat: russelllllllllll so meannnnn
russell: wow you actually got that! now your IQ is 2!
you broke an angel's heart
09:39 p.m.
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i am POSITIVELY going to faint ! this is like a dream come true. it's exactly what i've been waiting for. oh my goodness. now i just have to wait for it to come. and probably do well for promos to earn it. ALRIGHT SET. i live for harry. shit it's so beautiful i'm gonna cry. i am OVERWHELMED
chill nat. the world already knows you love harry bloody freaking hell i just felt my heart shatter into a gazillion shards. you MUST buy the whole audiobook set to get the collector's harry potter ipod. only available online at the US itunes store. altogether US$548 dollars. the ipod alone is $299 which i would willingly fork out. i don't want the audiobooks i can freaking read! hello that's what i go to school for. i'm gonna go to sleep and try not to cry. i'm nat the big fat brat and i usually get what i want. and i want my harry potter ipod NOW. NOW NOW x( or i could get the new ipod nano which is cool too, and umm paste a harry potter sticker on it. which is so CHEAPSKATE. stupid apple. sell the ipod individually. no cow sense. i am very cross now. 
APPLE RELEASED A HARRY POTTER IPOD
01:27 a.m.
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Believe me, Natalie
Forget what they said in Soho
There is an old cliche
Believe me, Natalie
God help me somehow
Listen Natalie
This is your last chance to find
A go-go dance to disco now
Please believe me, Natalie
Listen Natalie
This is your last chance to find
A go-go dance to disco now
Leave the oh-no's out
And believe me, Natalie
Listen Natalie
This is your last chance
Under your Monet, baby
Remember the arch of roses
Right above your couch
Forget what they said in Soho
Leave the oh-no's out
Yes, there is an old cliche
Under your Monet, baby
You left the station now to the floor
With speculation, what was it for?
In that old hallway
Moses, why don't you say
You've been away for a long time
This is your last chance
To find a go-go
Forget what they said in Soho
And walk away
If my dreams for us can't get you through
Just one more day
It's alright by me
There's no time for survival left
The time is now...
Cause this might be your last chance
To disco, oh-oh
(cool song, my name)
Believe Me Natalie / The Killers
10:54 p.m.
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i read about the situation in New Orleans and i must say it's one of the most disturbing things i've read thus far. okay so the natural calamity hit and that really could not have been avoided. but what's up with all the crime? quote " it's each man for himself ", so said a cop when he was approached for help. HELLO? i was so upset. i mean like it isn't bad enough thousands were killed by the hurricane, and thousands more rendered homeless. now others have to go around shooting each other and RAPING little children. my goodness. i was appalled.
in times of disaster people should unite to help each other get through it. as if fighting among themselves is gonna solve anything. okay so riot because the government is slow, but please stop killing each other. DUH.
no one could have prevented the hurricane coming, but how you deal with it after that is all controllable. this is a pure test of human resilience and social strength. okay i shall not go on furthur if not i might utter smth politcally incorrect then get thrown in prison.
there's only so much the government can do (provision of water, food & necessities and i'm sure they're trying hard to dispatch provisions to Katrina victims but considering all the chaos it must be a tough job) and the rest is really up to the people. i understand everyone is distraught and perhaps think that 'survival of the fittest' is what they should umm live by, but okay so fight for yourselves if you must but don't hurt others in the process. what's with the raping? i mean what, did the hurricane make you horny or what. ugh.
okay enough ranting. as the black eyed peas say: where is the love?
just memories of a different life
09:41 p.m.
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passion pursuit day was surprisingly fun! wasn't a flop. the concert rocked. haha. mr bernard tan has the most amazing voice. me and krystle were SWOONING like mad. wen lao shi too! she was so good. (: and mr PAUL DAVIDSON my goodness. for a moment i was confused as to whether his talent was playing the piano or stand up comedy! haha :D he's the best pianist ever. he NARRATES his piano pieces. haha. and he's a lignum teacher. cool means cool man (:
then we had HALO. everyone was so pissed at the beginning. i say, tension! but it all worked out (: then yada yada other council stuff with xiujing. then ate lunch with alywin in thomson. sheesh i'm making the both of us fat. haha. i dropped lemon in my soup ): my ipod mysteriously fixed itself. but i'll go have it replaced before my warranty expires. my battery pack is really like roasted. i feel like eating yueliangdangao !
when there's nowhere else to run
is there room for one more son
she's bittersweet
09:18 p.m.
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yay today was really quite alot of fun. i think our aces day was quite cool. we did kickboxing haha. to techno music! and the teacher was so funny. haha. better than doing the usual 'scissors scissors' 'step clap step clap' . haha.
rushed back to SN asap after that! phew i made it back! (: saw lots of people lots lots lots. i was so happy. especially to see grace, dinah and mich! :D haha. zhuang lao shi treated us to drinks and we all sat down and talked. haha. i ate my precious pasta + coleslaw though i kinda wanted orange bowl / yu pian mian xian too.
then i went to town to meet alywin. we watched innocent steps. it was nice. i like the LATIN dancing. woohoo. the girl looks dreadfully familiar. umm alywin was a little high today. haha. it was quite funny. he can't count the time / walk slowly. then we ate at suki sushi & pestered the waiter. haha
okay i shall start studying HARD tmrw. i will try at the very least (:
it wasn't even whole to start with
10:17 p.m.
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" she's fat, they're all fat, i'm fat, you're fat, we're all fat " says janice dikinson
she rocks, totally
11:26 p.m.
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after school today i went down to the house pub room and got the shock of my life. i could see the WALLS. all thanks to LOREEN and terra! they did an amazing job of cleaning up the once uncleanupable pub room. (: it's SO darn neat now oh my goodness. char & i were salvaging materials for HALO and after that alot of people were dismantling these shelves things. yay then i went out with muh darlings xiu jing krystle and alyssa! (: finally. we had some chit chat chat chit. so fun. haha. we went all the way to meridien for yami yoghurt but for some INSANE reason it was closed ):
i met dinah on the train too! (: haha.
i've got this feeling
09:45 p.m.
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dance today! we have a COOL new dance. about suicide. finally. i've been dying to do a dance about that. however i felt really bad. because of stuff that happened during dance. sigh ):
anyways, i want to create like NICE smelling insect repellent. so i can repel cockroaches . hurray!
oh valen made my day :D i received snail mail from her. I LOVE YOU VALEN
leave me out of the drama
09:18 p.m.
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went to school for council stuff this morning. haha. teacher's day souveneirs are CUTE. then i went down to far east to get my hair cut. finally! after a long time. and it's quite a change. :/ good or bad, i'm not too sure!
then blah blah blah, had dinner at some small penang restaurant near coro, with lousy service and so so food and a chao bin waitress.
okay i think i shall do some work. THREE tests next week. that sucks so much
i do not take advice from fools
10:50 p.m.
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colours award night was alright! the food was good (: haha. it was quite fun lah. i love indian dance's item. xiuyi & i wanna join indian dance now! haha. well not quitting chinese of course!
anyway i kinda hated my outfit. sigh. i didn't get the chance to dress up properly because i did not have time to go home ): poooopy. whatever
watching the cars as they go by
11:18 p.m.
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cca best practice today. it was alright (: and we're getting a new item FINALLY for open day :D i can't wait!
She was a dancer all her life
09:31 p.m.
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i stayed home all day today to , EAT! i haven't had a proper meal but i have been snacking on everything possible. haha. i had chocolate for breakfast and so much biscuits and bread for lunch. total carb freakout. but i got some work done. yay
yesterday, in chronological order, i went to NYC in the morning. yea i wish new york city, but no i went to national youth council. you know i never realised they tore the skate park down. so now all the angmoh skateboarders hang out there while the music band people play.
anyways we went around doing stupid stuff. i gave out balloons, which was fun at first, but after a while i started sweating and it was getting hotter and yuck. haha. but there were some people on stilts, some people wearing sandwich boards, and dot, zhiru, chooisum and who else i can't rmb were in 5 jumpsuits connected together. haha. it was cute, but i wouldn't do it !
after that i watched charlie and the chocolate factory with alywin. it was such a WEIRD show my goodness. i don't know. the oompa loompas are really loony. they're not funny at all, they're freaky. like freak-me-out-please-go-and-die freaky. but i love charlie (: he's so so so cute. "it's beautiful!" i quote. aww squish squish! then i went for swei's chalet. crap i can't believe now she's leaving too. ): first valen now her. i'm gonna miss her. oh well. met up with michelle, grace & dinah there. finally. after many months of: let's meet up soon k ? we finally did. oh well. and poor grace, hope you're alright dear!
let's create anthems of our own tonight
06:39 p.m.
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i just watched the most beautiful video in the world for the umpteenth time. it's Polina Semionova in Herbert Groenemeyer's video. click here it's so perfectly entrancing & inspirational. i can look at it and just be lifted up all over again. i'm so speechless. everytime i watch it i wanna cry. i'm just so , totally in AWE. she's perfect, so passionate so everything i wanna be.
i just got the catalog from The Juilliard School. i saw the word Juilliard on the envelope and i was SO happy. if only that was an acceptance letter or something. i want to give up everything right now to go work hard on my application to Juilliard. but i guess thats not really possible. sigh.
everything's a dream i guess. i really hope someday.
dancing is so beautiful i never wanna stop.
Dancing is the ultimate defiance of gravity
06:08 p.m.
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haha today was funny. went to IMM giant to meet with the other house reps. we had to buy 400 dollars worth of food for prizes for the NE cup. and we were buying in bulk like crazy. we filled THREE supermarket carts with loads of junk food and everyone was STARING like crazy. i would dig out their eyes if i could. we bought 39 boxes of oreos, 36 tubes of pringles etc. you get the picture.
haha. we bought quite nice stuff! lucky people who win the NE cup. and we all know it's gonna be Aqua. mmmm! haha. mer & i were talking about harry potter alot. and maye asked, is anyone here from Solaris. OMG so blonde! duh no. there's only one welfare head per house. hahaha
anyway, happy national day! haha. yesterday we had half day and H.A.T had to stay back to clean pub room. oh how totally horrible and disgusting and gross and ewww and yucky and PUKE-worthy. in total we found 2 lizards, 1 cockroach, 1 cockroach youngling and 1 ant army nest :/ i was freaking out. and so were the rest of the girls. except for perhaps grace & debo. haha. those brave-unbothered-by-squirmy-creepy-crawlies girls! then went to PS with alywin. met krystle and melvin. wanted to watch charlie and the chocolate factory but it was so unfortunately sold out! ): so we watched the wedding crashers instead. which wasn't a total let down at least. it was hilarious!
after the movie krystle & melvin left. and i had to wait for nic. so i just walked around with alywin. kept walking back and forth from PS to orchard the whole day, then walked around in circles and circles. it was quite silly. haha
then nic finally finished school then we went to keppel to eat dinner. i didn't really have much appetite for the buffet though. how odd . just ate lots of SUSHI!
anyways, i think that VIVIAN BALAKRISHNAN is a very handsome MP. okay i think i already mentioned that. but i watched the national day parade just so i could see him. haha. if he wasn't a political biggie i think it would be more appropriate to treat him like a rupert grint and totally idolise him, but i shall not. rupert grint! (:
Drenched in my pain again
08:02 p.m.
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i shook mr. VIVIAN BALAKRISHNAN's hand. haha. okay no biggy. but we were all really excited to see all the MPs and especially VB because he's -cough kinda handsome. haha.
went for some National Day ushering event thing today. it was CORNY. but fun in a way. (: haha. and there were five MPs there, and out of them, FOUR were NJCians! so cooooool right. (: NJC rocks totally! haha. so all us NJ ushers went to take pictures with all the MPs and one shouted: those from NJ raise their hands! then all of our arms shot up, except for that one non-NJcian MP. haha it was so funny (: they're so cute. and one's coming for our national day celebrations tomorrow, mr teo ho pian
i hope mr VB comes next year! haha sheesh. ling hui is more crazy than me though, she insisted on NOT washing her hands. heh.
all for NJ
oh we wanted to do yahhh cheer with the MPs, but their guards might arrest us or smth. haha .
that is where we belong
together we mug
together we play
all for love! :D
i was born to try, born to love
07:29 p.m.
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oh man the performance today sucked so much. the stupid stage screwed up everything. ): you know we were dancing on like a GE TAI. it was so lame, what a waste of time. okay so i thought, it's a charity gala show, it's for charity. BUT NO, it was a bukit panjang gala. which means whatever money we raised goes into the upgrading of bukit panjang.
hello, like since when did i sign a contract for that. whatever. but indian, malay and western dance did very well. it's just us cos we had to run in run out, change props here and there. and the lighting was horrid. and there was unnecessary smelly vision-obstructing smoke. three cheers for NJ DANCE!
oh i sat the LRT for the first time today (: so exciting! actually i think it was the first time for all the SN people. haha. cos we all don't live in the choa chu kang area. the RV people were thinking we were so suaku. hahaha.
okay tmrw i have to be at this ushering thing. it's SO LAME. i actually have to sing, stand up for singapore and clap my hands and be enthusiastic about a LAME play with such a cliched plot and a horrible over-exaggerated actress. hideeeho!
and you could not do better
11:27 p.m.
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OMGOODNESS i just experienced the scariest thing ever. a cockroach a cockroach just climbed up my computer table and tried to kill me! YUCK! so gross. i heard something scritchy scratchy then i saw IT crawling over the pencil holder and now i'm never gonna write again. it's contaminated
i actually need the scissors but i think the cockroach touched it. thank goodness it spared my laptop :/
i think cockroaches are things that the world could SERIOUSLY do without. they are gross six-legged brown creatures that give me the goosebumps. EWW. i need my baygon.
i was screaming so much. and my grandma was all: what happened what happened! and i screamed, COCKROACH. although i wasn't looking at her i could totally imagine her rolling her eyes or smth.
anyways, thursdays are always eventful - Project Work. haha there was a whole anti-ms ho fiasco today. well actually there always is, but it was just bigger today. people argued more than usual, talked louder than usual, and we went to see the PW head.
i don't think i want the ericsson k750i anymore. i want the new samsung E530C it comes in PINK you see. pink, blue, silver, purple and orange/red (can't tell). SO UBER COOL. i have to get the pink. or the ericsson K600i is pretty alright too. it's aluminium cased.
i can't help you fix yourself
09:17 p.m.
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Looking at your picture from when we first met
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
I’m trying to move my head
And I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
That since I lost you, I lost myself
okay so SUE ME for posting a backstreet boys song. but it's nice okay. their new album isn't half bad (:
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they went cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights
that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else
Just Want You To Know / Backstreet Boys
09:21 p.m.
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YAY. we ended closing night fantasticallylylylyly! :D i know it's crazy to be online now but i don't know, just don't feel like sleeping
went to eat supper with mom, nic, gerry & hui. BURP ate alot. but all for celebratory purposes. (: ate at the hawker centre at esplanade
so today was tiring. boring at times. tedious - make up & hair (especially doing the centre parting). but i guess very fulfilling. (: and after the performance i was both happy & sad i guess. happy because we did well ! and sad because that would be my last dance. OUR last dance. ): last syf i mean. of course i would continue dancing forever. we still have one more performance on 6th august but that would be on a smaller scale. so yea. some year twos were tearing and i wanted to too! it's SO sad. this is my favourite item out of my 6 years of dancing !
NJ chinese dance we really really rock. (: i can't believe how far we've come to earn a good name for CHINESE DANCE in njc, and ooh! it's just so exciting. keep the legacy burning . xiu yi & wanzhen you guys have done excellento ! (:
okay enough 'evaluation' i think i'll go now. SIGH. i want photos (prisss)!
don't you break my heart slow
12:46 a.m.
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okay i think the entry below was so UN-me. i was reading it and i was like, wow it's obviously NOT me. okay anyways, we went to kallang for rehearsal. oh my goodness i am utterly RELIEVED that i am not in the finale. it's SO retarded i could faint. pinky swear it's HILARIOUS. entertainment value A plus. not the exact finale item but the way the guy teaches it and the corny look on the dancers faces- feigned enthusiasm. the song contains lyrics like: paint a rainbow with many colours, come paint it with me, colours..new emotion! ...you and me... and it's in this high irritating girly vocie
i was laughing my arse off. haha. okay CRAP i forgot to go rinse my costume.
Like a shadow on my wall
09:35 p.m.
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hello everybody, today was relativly fun, woke up and er went to school. it was raining and i was so happy cos i love the rain and i like the pitter patter sound *giggle then i was trying on my jackets deciding on which one to wear then i decided on my old black one, cos the rest looked wierd with grey. honestly grey and hm what color match pink maybe yes pink but then pink jackets are another thing altogether
today lessons were boring as usual and i have to get used to my new old nokia phone cos my samsung pink slideywidey phone went kapoot and i have to get use to nokia again. my phone will take two weeks vaca before it comes back :( oh well life goes on
during p.e we played captains ball and i kept running away from the ball and i screamed alot and everyone laughed at me then afterthat, vivien walked me to the bus stop cos i was lonley. then i went home
on the bus i stoned and gerry called when i got home to go blading we bladed around the whole estate and boy is it tiring when we were younger we could zoom all over and no sweat. we also saw monkeys performing a tightrope trapeze kind of act on the electric cables used to light up the swampy area. cool monkeys
well now im at gerry's house rummaging through her books 801 questions for kids on the bible hmm... ok la im gerry but i'm quite sure this is a relativly accurate transcript of what nat said whilst she was rolling around on my purple bed.
ciao
i learnt how to kiss on a ferris wheel
07:11 p.m.
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okay so NOT my day. i waited for 138 for SO long, then it was too full so i couldn't get on. THEN i waited for like another 20 minutes and finally another 138 came but it was too full AGAIN. so i got pissed and hailed a cab, only to get a grumpy old taxi driver who smokes. :/ thus i rode back home in grossly stinky conditions.
but other than that everything else was pretty okay. i went to support canoeing today. NJ canoeing rocks! (: we got first for B div girls, A div girls and A div boys! yay :D
then i went to yishun to watch r gym. it was fun. well the good were super good. it was a little freaky, okay very freaky. haha. but it was awesome to watch! gerry was really good. the judges were biased against SN xiao ji ti! ):
alrighty, gerry promised to visit me later. i wanna walk to seveneleven and eat ice cream. I SCREAM!
now it's my world
08:06 p.m.
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i finshed HBP last night. slept at 3, woke at 6. somehow i'm still wide awake. it was brilliant, but sad. no spoilers here, i'm kind. but i was shocked beyond belief, and i really believed something bad had happened. hopefully that would stay fiction.
and my i'm so grateful that i had the 'wisdom' to finish it before going back to school, which was flooded with dreadful SPOILERS, most unfortunate to those who had not the foresight to finish HBP quick.
alright just had a HANG bbq! angel's leaving tmrw ): poopee. hui's knocked out on my sofa. gerry's attacking angel (as i have just gotten rid of her with great difficulty).
destiny is calling me
11:41 p.m.
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TOMORROW TOMORROW TOMORROW I I I GET GET GET MY MY MY LIFE LIFE LIFE BACK BACK BACK! :D hurray! harry potter and the half blood prince will be mine in around 10 hours. OMGOOOOODNESSS. i'm gonna devote each and every single waking minute to harry potter. if i have to dance i will but my heart will be with RON . if he dies in this book i swear i will mourn for seven days. i will cut myself off from everything until i finish the book. go nat, read fast! harry i'm coming. ! hope he does well for his OWLS!
tell me if you hear me
08:40 p.m.
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okay i guess it's finally time for an update. today was rough. not a good day i guess. no need for elaboration. i guess i'm just not good enough.
i hate feeling this way you know. i always seem to encounter such feelings though. and that totally sucks. i wanna eat oranges.
till i am gone
08:47 p.m.
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came back from sentosa not long ago. we went too late, therefore no sun. in fact there was rain. HOLY MOLY ): i was devastated. when it started raining, i felt like, oh my goodness, there goes my tan. but we made it work. went cycling. how fun. though my ass kinda hurts because of the bicycle seat. and the attention i drew to my ass. crap. i wore shorts that said DANCER. but due to the poor penmanship of the manufacturer (or the bloody designer) many misread it as DANGER. crap can you imagine a girl with DANGER written across her ass. thats why i tried to stick my butt on the bicycle. and we had a nice session eating dinner in the viewing gallery. talked and laughed. HAT forever
1 2 3 4 aerius all the way. 5 6 7 8 aqua all the way. 9 10 11 12 ignis all the way. 13 14 15 16 lignum all the way. 17 18 19 20 solaris all the way. 21 22 23 24 terra all the way. 1 1 1 1 house reps all the way! (:
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
a kiss will only vise
11:30 p.m.
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omg! i have completed my first series of common tests ever! :D but i'm NOT too pleased about my performance, but i'm definately OVER THE MOON that i can finally enjoy this LONG weekend (: 4 days with no studying whatsoever. i do have this chinese book review. but i have this fantastic idea that i will do a book review for a chinese-translated english book! haha. for example, the chinese version of harry potter. genius!
kidding. well that is kinda cheating, and defeats the purpose of doing a chinese book report which is to like, read a chinese book. so today i went to kino to try looking for a chinese book. and okay, i could hardly read the titles! they were all in old chinese and like, whatever. hoho
just came back from Jubilate! modern dance was good. but eldds was the best. jill ann was great. haha. and saw all the old dearies like lisa, leanne, jean, loo, pooty, bel etc! yay (: alrighty i'm gonna slack tmrw. wait i have school. but just a happy council meeting. NO academic stuff. haha. hurrah . leanne told me some nasty things i didn't wanna hear. omg who the hell allowed rumours to exist ! damn.
i'm awake, but the world is half asleep
11:25 p.m.
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i'm back. actually arrived yesterday. but was unpacking, bumming, trying to study and jetlagging. well i don't really think i unpacked. i took out all my clothes because i have a closet to put them in. but i have no where to put my 7 pairs of shoes (i brought two and bought 5) as the shoe cabinet is stuffed & packed with my mom's and sister's shoes. and no where else to put all my thingamajigs because all my various shelves and storage facilities are full of my old stuff. which i probably should throw out to make way for my newer awesomer things, only i can't be bothered to spring clean in summer.
i'm jetlagging that's why i woke up at 5 am and tried to go back to sleep. but to no avail, therefore i am on the computer, running some errands & watching Nickelodeon!
my new DREAM school is Juilliard School. it is the ultimate school for performing arts. located in the New York City in Lincoln Center. i visited it, it's so WOW. you have no idea how darn hard it is to get in. it's so prestigious. it's like harvard for dance. sweeet!
not like i'm gonna get in. alrighty off to do i have no idea what. sigh i miss melissa, kevin, ryan, yee yee, lay yee, yee cheong, jasey & penny, pool, un-humid air, potato bread, penne vodka, huge pizzas, ginormous cookies, tanning, home-cooked broccoli, the marshes, wasabi etc etc!
can't deny it, can't pretend
06:38 a.m.
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woooo that's a long time without updates. okay i'll be leaving in less than a week ): last weekend. it's like 10 days to common tests. SCREAMS! mmm, this weekend we are going to catch a broadway show in NYC, the big apple! and the next day back to pennsylvania, the poconos to camel beach. it's like a water themepark
last night i went to play miniature golf! how exciting (: heh. i don't suck at golf! considering it was my first time ever playing golf. i got a hole in one at one hole! :D and lots of birdies. okay maybe it's just easy that's why.
then we went to polar cub [it's the hottest ice cream place in the area. everyone goes there for good and cheap ice cream]. their soft serve is amazing. yumm. oh holy i must rant about how totally FAT i have become. i swear this is not paranoia or hallucination. chocolates + cookies + ice cream + pizza + junk junk junk = FatNat. oops :/ went to the dancer's shop yesterday too! i bought cheer & dance booty shorts and a awesome leotard and NYCballet wrap! $10 per article only. i was so happy. and dear mrs marsh brought us to Wasabi. the best sushi place around, it was in somerville. sushi rocks. I LOVE SUSHI! just got back from costco again. my cousin kevin has the biggest ego ever. you won't imagine the things he says. last night he went: sweet dreams! and by that i mean, dream of me.
many more BIG HEADED lines, but if i write anymore i might just barf. haha oh he is so cute. i love my cousins!
he goes to the mirror, strikes a post and says: hey good looking / ooh i look HOT.
after he dressed up for this photoshoot he goes: i'm so good looking i don't know if the world is ready for me.
and nothing else is beautiful
02:41 p.m.
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back from pennsylvania! it's 9.50 at night here and there's a big thunderstorm. the weather has been totally WACKY. it's so hot one day, then totally stormy. and tomorrow is gonna be like high 90s? thats like 30 plus degrees. SO hot. anyway, in pennsylvania we went to Pocono and big boulder lake. my relatives had a small cosy place up there. it's nice :D the lake was nice. i went kayaking! oh my goodness, i have like zero arm muscles. haha i was so pathetic kayaking. but i managed to get back to the dock without flipping or anything then we hung out by the pool and melissa and i got to this boating dock with no boats. and it was so cool, like our private dock cos it was totally deserted. and it was nice and long and we lay on the tip of it and tanned. we fell asleep for an hour or so and we got so fried. well i don't tan easily so i'm still pasty and disgusting. but melissa is so nice and golden
melissa and i slept in the loft. it's a little cosy corner in the house. and the next day which was today, we hit the factory outlets. WOW OH WOW. 100 premium factory outlets. there was danskin, guess, polo ralph lauren, dkny, VANS, pacsun, rue 21, bcbg, fossil, reebok, chocolate factory, sugar mountain, aeropostale, claire's, bible factory outlet (uhhuh) etc etc. all so nice and cheap. sorta. as in cheaper than retail outlets. :D got some great buys! at the end of the day i felt like i hadn't spent enough so i went into a shop and bought something. haha. sheesh oh ya i wanted to mention at the bible factory outlet there was this sweatshirt that said Abreadcrumb & Fish. and it was in the exact same font and style as Abercrombie & Fitch! so so cute. i wanted to get it
okay i gotta go before we lose electricity. i'm tired. and i really put on a lot of weight thus far. two more weeks of fat. i gotta study more!
live and let die
09:50 p.m.
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someone control my spending! haha. i am saving up to go to pennsylvania! which is tomorrow. all the FACTORY OUTLETS are there :D i can't wait! i want i want i want. haha. and i have been studying! i have.
preparing for my aunt's bridal shower later. it's a surprise party. and her wedding is on the 11th. and there's a photoshoot and everything. and i've decided to come here again after my A's. like while waiting for results. stay over the winter and spring. i would love to stay over summer and autumn, but school would start by then ): oh poopy. okay before thinking about A's , COMMON TESTS man haha. yes those thingys. alrighty, lunch now!
You weren't the only one two three four
01:30 p.m.
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i finally got to use a proper computer! the rest of the computers in my relative's house are down ): so everyone's sharing this ONE laptop. but it's good. i've been using my pda phone's internet for the past two days or so. it's so troublesome anyways, the weather here is simply the best. in the morning it's a little chilly, around 16 degrees celsius. then in the afternoon it goes up to around 20 degrees. so excellent. you can just dress like how you would in Singapore, but have like constant airconditioning everywhere you go :D so far i spent like around US$90. is that alot? well i guess it was unnecessary to but TWO pairs of shoes that are the same but are in different colours. mmm, haha oh well! i couldn't decide between the two you see
oh the backyard's so beautiful. there's a pool, a hammock & a little swing. and i love the smell of everything. the nice familiar smell. i wish i could capture it and bring it back. today i ate the HUGEST ice cream imaginable. okay not really, but i asked for medium and it probably equals like 4 scoops of ice cream. MY GOD. it was called chocolate devotion. chocolate ice cream + chocolate chips + chocolate fudge + chocolate brownies. yummm, but totally sinful! the ice cream parlour was called cold stone. like they make all the solid flavours, then when you ask for some concoction the take the ice cream, put it on a cold stone slab, and start mixing in the ingredients (like brownies and chocolate). it was heaven at first, but i was dying trying to finish :/ all that fat! alrighty, i'm still semi-recovering from jet lag.
Everytime I look for you
The sun goes down
09:15 p.m.
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time to sleep soon. i must find a way around the jet lag. leaving tomorrow! for the states. umm, i've set lots of reminders on my pda to STUDY AND MUG. haha. i must be constantly reminded you see. ill-disciplined me. mmm, our baggage is already like overweight. three of us travelling, 71kg. haha. die. that means i can't be anything back. or leave my stuff there? and buy new stuff? haha. COOOOL. anyone want anything just text me! i'm bringing my phone. oh ya! inflight entertainment highlight, COACH CARTER. too cool
forever for tonight
09:56 p.m.
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WATCHED THE URBAN FUNK SPECTACULAR YESTERDAY. ooooooh it was the bomb! the breakdancing, popping, locking, super pro! and this dancer who danced in honey, and you got served, was part of the crew. OMGOODNESS he was like the best best best best best. he's damn coool. went with krystle and her friends. then krystle and i took a picture with him :D
we bought the Break! tshirt. yay! haha. and everything was just so awesome. umm they said they're coming back again. so anyone out there who missed it, please catch it the next time round! wooooo just came back from the regeant performance not long ago. me, anthea and xiuyi did the modern indian dance. i miss it! haha. okay i must mug during the holidays. which is kinda hard because i'm going to be in the US ( :D ) for the whole month. coming back like 2 days before common tests begin. gasp- jetlag! i'll probably like fall asleep during my GP test.
okay i feel like eating kinder bueno! (:
Today i saw my hero fall apart
08:59 p.m.
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i watched star wars today! it was pretty cool. well i kinda forgot what happened in the first two episodes. but it was so SCARY, you know, the limbs getting cut off by light sabres and all that :/ and really sad when all the jedis started to die cos everyone started rebelling ): poopy. that's a spoiler, i think. depends if you know the star wars story. oh ya, hayden c is no longer cute yesterday night went to esplanade with my family to eat at glutton bay. boy was everyone glutton-ish! and the band playing at esplanade was super good. the vocalists (male & female) rocked! :D AND i got my harry potter and the goblet of fire poster! the real double sided actual movie poster that isn't even out in the cinemas yet, imported straight from the USA. bought from popcorn. (: oohwee i'm so glad! and my mom saw a time-turner in the shop and asked if it really worked. OH HOLYY how totally spastic is she. okay i did a bit more work than usual today. whee. still very little but at least i feel a tad more accomplished (:
tighten my strings till they snap
09:19 p.m.
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holidays are coming. unfortunately i feel no thrill or excitement. reason being common tests are right after the term break. which means studying and more studying.
i need to grow smarter, somehow. i heard eating bananas helps. right now, i'm tired, sniffing (from a flu that never seems to go away) and eyebaggy ):
yesterday had some vesak day performance thingy. there was one item at some temple and another at sentosa. since we CONVENIENTLY were the last item, we performed around 12.45 A.M. goodness. there was a countdown and everything, with fireworks. those were pretty. ooh. but other than that it was rather lame. got home SO late. like 2 a.m. then bathed and all. i really just wanted to plop into bed but i had on all that eyeliner and hairgel. i slept for like 11 hours. woke up at 2 p.m
just taking a short break from my work. i want to go back to school. i need to study with people to actually get more things done. on my own at home i go so slowly.
and i need something sweet
05:42 p.m.
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I open my eyes
And I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
this song is so, sigh. it's great. simple plan always does it right
eww, maybe i'm too sensitive
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
Untitled / Simple Plan
09:21 p.m.
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wow the past few days have been pretty hectic! one word, dance. umm on friday, we had our jts! treated the seniors to PizzaHut. oh my goodness i'm like a bully-magnet. anyways, i had to go for horizon after that. like AT NIGHT. to finish qian shou guan yin. and yesterday was COLLEGE DAY (: the whole day was taken up to prepare for the performance at night. but i (and the rest of the dance people) missed out alot! we sneaked up a few times to join in the fun of the food fair. but we couldn't stay long. cos firstly jasmine didn't allow it. and secondly, we looked kinda abnormal. thick green devil-ish make up and all.
): it was so ri nao upstairs! oh well. the performance was alright. well lots of good comments. i was really tired after that. went home and slept with all the gel, glitter & un-take-out-able eyeliner. but i woke up again to remove it cos it's oh-so-disgusting
today i had horizon AGAIN. went at 9.30 until 6.30 for full dress. costumes are alright. kinda. at least they're mostly the long flowy type. no awful bodysuits. modern dance is cool. it's contemporary and our costumes are red & black! (: funkydoodle
watched deep blue sea just now. oh holy hybrid sharks are scary. i'm so not going to swim in the sea ever! college day holiday tomorrow! yippee! :D
The night goes on
As i'm fading away
09:43 p.m.
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congratulations to the NATIONAL JUNIOR COLLEGE table tennis team! CHAMPIONS :D ohmygoodness the match was so exciting. especially towards the end! but it was pretty close! so kudos to rjc as well. full dress tomorrow. OOPS i have not been watching my weight. :/ haha. i'm gonna burst out of my costume.
met clare on the bus today. it was nice seeing an old friend (:
hate it or love it
09:06 p.m.
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SIGH today was eventful! it was so fun hanging out with the chinese dancers again (: haha. school was slack. we were off at 1140 cos the j-ones were supposed to go for a field trip. but performing groups had college day rehearsal. so we bummed in school from 1140 to 1730. haha. hung out with my darling dancers in CA3. we were discussing make up, and after that i slept like a pig, while some mugged and others slacked more. then we danced in the sanctuary. it's quite fun. and the seniors sucked me dry ):
technical run was okay. except for the horrible stench of fresh paint, it was alright. wan zhen is SO sweet my goodness! aaron is lucky :P
i think i should quite Horizon soon. i feel a bit bad just quitting like that, but still, it's so troublesome going all the way to simei. :/ anyways, i hate rumours ): honestly i think this is so stupid. you're like this and i'm like that but we're still stuck.
Turning saints into the sea
09:11 p.m.
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exco elections today. umm i think our 38th exco is alright. mmm, too political to comment! xj, cheer up. when you cried on my shoulder i wanted to cry too.
pick me up and dust me off
09:29 p.m.
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i'm back from ELECTS' CAMP 2005! :D i survived. woohoo! gosh i'm so bummed. i'm like really tired but i just can't sleep. although i alr slept just now. ANYWAY i really wanna blog about it even if it's gonna be really long because it's been a great experience. okay OMG let me sound wise for once on my blog. during this camp the elects pushed themselves to the MAX. we did things we never knew we could do & it's a big achievement!
even though we were tired, dirty and sleep-deprived, we walked away not only with muscle aches (eyebags too!) but also with new lessons learnt, more experience, special friendships, and wonderful memories enough to last us a lifetime (:
look, i've matured a little :D HOHO. i shall go into the details of the camp activities:
day one the part that they put us in the house pub room and told us the freaky stuff was well, freaky!
day two
of course the HIKE this was the most OMGODISH thing ever! 40 km if i'm not wrong. from school we walked, by foot, walked, like actually WALKED to KAP! we had to walk past 1st ave, 2nd, 3rd, 4th and don't know what else to the big M! and we got scolded there ): how totally embarrassing. had to do rowcall and stuff in PUBLIC. after that we were allowed to take a bus to bukit batok nature park. but after that it was walking all the way. walked to bukit timah nature reserve. then walked to macritchie. -FAINTS. my legs are aching like ALOT, like ALOT, like ALOT!
but you know, most of us were struggling. and i must applaud tran who was injured & kept going. especially when she had to piggyback dot! and chitra who was sick, but she kept pushing as well. and melvin & chii ye who took turn carrying my sexy girly bag (cos most of the food was in my bag since it was totally huge). at the later part of the hike, we were holding on to each other, really pushing each other along. and i can't believe we did it! (:
along the way suihang called me hui jia ALOT of times and made me feel very inferior cos he kept speaking chinese (though he looks like he can't) :P and apparantly he is sui hunk. even though i whined quite alot at the beginning, and got all bratty and bratty, the aliens put up with me, so Thank You to my group, and the seniors who kept encouraging us from behind. we worked our way up from dead last to 5th place. but that isn't the point! the point is we completed the hike with spirit!
after that we went back to school to do our own cooking. we cooked instant mee over like, makeshift stoves & stuff. and they were edible. HURRAY. though we spilled alot. jo lynn finally came back from her sound of music. haha. and she was super enthu about helping out and opening the cans. she was opening the tuna, mixing the mushrooms and curry. lol! and poor tran was really ill. ): it was pretty unhygenic that everyone was sharing here and there. but nvm, alien's dna! :P sui hang was so silly lah, he took alot alot alot of toilet paper from the toilet to clean up such that he looked like he was carrying a pom pom :/ so i called him a white house cheerleader. and chitra was a great cook!
day three
our aim was to get to the parade square and somehow all the elects were to get into one line, and do a row call from 1 to 72! and we tried SO MANY TIMES. trust me, this game was a test of mental strength. we were all frustrated and suffering from fatigue. the row call was unsuccessful many many times. and we could not link up properly. and finally, finally we did it. OMG when i heard the number 72 , when WE heard it we all cheered and cheered and screamed and OMG it felt good (: and i was rowcall number 38! whee! haha.
and kenny told us to stand proudly in front of the school crest and sing both school songs. and many of the girls were crying (me included) cos we were just so proud and happy. and what really touched me was that the seniors did three cheers for 38s! they didn't call us elects they called us 38s (: i don't knw, just felt nice
breakfast party after that was great. we pooled all our food together and had a buffet thing. all those chocolate chip cookies, chips and stuff tasted GREAT (: and junkiat was like: how's your forehead? and i was all: huh? then i recalled that in the morning while i was blind, i totally crashed into some wall. and it didn't hurt . haha. omg how embarrassing. the seniors all around were probably sniggering and stuff.
we had an ideas generation activity. russell acts fast, thinks fast man! :D and jo lynn did a great job to promote our failing product. heh. then the exco fully introduced the structure of the student council. i don't think i'll go for exco, but i wanna be house coordinator. i'm sure! :D haha. after listening to all the committees talking, i was waiting and waiting for a post i was confident of taking and one thati would be able to do my best in, and when i heard the role of the house coordinator there was a DING! in my head. (: i wanna be the link between the house heads and the house. and to write the house cheers. and WOOO go lignum!
the last challenge was a pure test of endurance, and teamwork. i don't know how to explain it. but mainly the whole council formed a ring by lying on each other but our legs were propped up. it's hard to picture. but it was damn straining on the legs. the first round i was unprepared so i was like tearing at the end cos of the pain. we had to hold for 2-3 minutes. but second round i was crying cos the tears just came. i swear i felt no pain then, but i just was crying cos i was glad the 72 (two absentees) of us were actually holding on! and plus i like the feeling of tears against my face :P
we had a major reflection session. then we got our council tshirts. it's nice! then our alien seniors gave us trophies. OMG i am so damn pleased. (: it's so precious. i'm gonna keep it forever and ever and ever
well that's the end of one of my biggest adventures in my life. cos i've never gone for any kinda physical camp like this. no OBS or stuff cos i am SO not the hardy kind. i get scared of mud, insects and germs. haha. despite all the aching knees from pumping, improper baths, and suffering from lack of cellphone usage, the camp was well worth it. it's the beginning the term of the 38th student council of NJC soon, and i absolutely beleive we will do a wonderful job. (: andre left a brilliant message. which i can't remember properly cos his english is too saht but he said smth like: we shold not walk in the shadows of the thirty sevens, but we should reflect them and shine. smth like that (:
good job thirty sevens! & thirty eights , all the way!
i was in the group called ALIENS! (: omg my groupmates are absolutely the best. the ultimate. and our seniors too! we fell in around 5. okay not around 5, punctuality man! we fell in at 5pm! of course there were the late people. but we were punished for that. it went like this: 10 push ups times the amount of minutes the last person took to arrive. so we accumalated over the whole camp around 400. but so far i counted we did about 200 push ups and 150 sit ups (including PT). yes, OUCH. ummm on first day we had a disability game at night. where they blindfolded some, muted some, crippled some. it was great cos when i was blind i just GRABBED on so tight to dot and i fully trusted her and she's so nice (:
this was the most gruelling. we fell in at 6 a.m. to do physical training. pumping, sit ups, running, various abdominal exercises. then there were station games. though our group ended up losing quite alot (it's okay it's alright!) we had tonnes of fun. especially the stretching standing broad jump game thingy. hoho. and the hydration game. how retarded could we get! suihang said i cut my nails twice a day! wth. and who uses GUCCI deodorent (spelling)?
which kinda felt like day two. cos we slept at 12.30 a.m. but woke up at about 3 a.m. played this really meaningful game. we were all blindfolded and we were led to different parts of the college. we were not allowed to talk or remove the blindfolds (DUH) but we had to somehow figure out where we were (by means of touching the ground, walls, guessing which part of the school we were put) and find other elects and hold their hands. we communicated by writing on each others palms. i had alot of difficulty with that! OOPS my bad :P
i'm foolish with my hands held high
10:36 p.m.
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class party on saturday at my place. it was great. ate TONNES of junk. ice cream, cake, lots of candy. it was practically halloween. and pasta and soup and more more more. haha. and since then i got addicted to eating. hmmm.
horizon on sunday. was thinking that maybe i should not quit after all. it's my only chance to meet up with Poots and update each other. and what they have lined up for us is pretty OKAY. but i still feel really lazy to head all the way to simei (even if i am driven there) every sunday. ):
okay so school today. everything is super fast paced now. WHOA nat's life on fast-forward. lectures are being completed faster, and my tutorials are all lagging. holyy momma & the clock goes faster & faster. like the amount of time needed to go from venue to venue seems to get shorter! i hate a certain teacher. in fact the whole world hates her. to that particular biatch please go and stick your head in a toilet bowl, and push the flush button, then sit in a bucket of cow poo and get attacked by man-eating flies. GRR. don't ever pick on my friend again! x(
when love was young & raw
10:39 p.m.
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mmm not exactly feeling very good now. well nothing BAD for sure happened. but just nothing good has been confirmed and i'm feeling all sucky about it ): sigh
there's council and all the anxiety about whether we're getting in or not. and there's that thing which i cannot say here but it's bothering the hell out of me. and i don't know. i really feel like eating chocolate to cheer myself up. but i can't afford to consume any more junk. if this isn't fate, then what do you call it? it's such a perfect oppurtunity. so like me to screw it all up. i hope i won't.
tell me pretty lies
before the cold hard truth hits me
09:31 p.m.
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omg i am BUMMED. let's see, speech day today. well no comment really. or rather i don't want to comment. i am just SO SO relieved that it's over. all over! now it's just some last minute campaigning, and the voting period and then results. after school i had dance! yay! after a whole danceless week. haha. we had to rearrange the dance to suit a smaller stage. yikes, quite disastrous! but after that the teachers treated us to Pizza! yum :D haha i love pizza. i feel like sleeping now. but it's so early, i'm still dirty and i have a mountain of neglected homework, which i think i'll continue to ignore. went back to sn yesterday (: reddies! don't give up. you guys are messy, yes but trust me on this: the choreography & routine rocks! all the way (: i love the oriental bit. seriously, you guys just need to drill drill and drill. reddies reddies all the way! (:
it's all about you baby
08:55 p.m.
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thought i should update before the week starts. this wednesday speech day aka doomsday. HOLYY. just thinking about it gives me the goosebumps! dang. well after this wednesday is voting, and after that all i can do is pray!
i cut my hair! nothing drastic. my fringe is shorter now. it's a little annoying. but i finally cut my hair after like MONTHS. haha
i think my appetite is surmounting. i eat more & more each day. and hw is piling up too! my to-do list is LONG. i hope i'll be free on the 29th! (:
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
02:45 a.m.
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i haven't updated for, quite a while. anyways, been SUPER busy! very very. this week has been hell. it still is, but i decided to drop whatever i was doing & update anyway! okay major highlight, Chinese Dance got GOLD WITH HONOURS :D omg it was the most exhilarating thing ever! i think this syf was one of my most enjoyable stage moments. i don't know but YAY! haha :D the support was wonderful too. saw sn pple & just, yay!
and the thing that has been keeping me busy: council. i have to stand for elections. it's totally stressing. i had to do my poster last minute :/ cos it was my syf day and we had to hand it in the next day & everything was a whole mess. now my ugly ugly FUGLY poster is hanging in the linkway. ): POO. it looks like bangsai honestly
next, speech day next wednesday. i'm freaking out alr. i SUCK like totally SUCK at public speaking. the q&a is gonna kill me! answering impromptu questions are so NOT my thing! sheesh. and me, xiu jing, weihao & ben formed a campaign team : the awesome foursome! :D hoho. i really really hope everything works out
and i have a TONNE of undone homework waiting in a dusty pile for me. mymy. tmrw western dance syf. good luck to them. i'm sure the Gold with honours is theirs! so cool if all four dance groups get gold with honours in the very first year the award was implemented! NJC dance rocks!
moving around in circles
06:27 a.m.
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oh today was so fun (: it was dear valencia's birthday lunch! met her, chaiping, michelle, dinah, grace, shu wei & chow at crystal jade taka at 11! but michelle was LATE cos she was still sleeping at 11. we ate lots & lots of dimsum! and just alot. had MANGO pudding too (: oooh. and then there was a surprise cake for valen! i can safely say i ate enough for the next three days alr :/
meeting up with the old gang was great. (: talked & laughed about the old days. shu wei gave valen this scrap book of photos & memories. really sweet! and valen's father is so FUNNY. he called her in the middle of the meal and told her he was in the toilet & was just testing out the new cordless phone & was asking her if it was clear. SO CUTE ! school tmrw. mmm now my fave subject / lesson is... i don't know, PHYSICS :D mr goh rocks ! and i detest GP alot ): not the subject. the lesson! cos i prefer my old GP class, and old teacher. my teacher now is a little, not right in the head! really. she's a weird cranko who can't spell query. and PRC scholars scare me. i don't know why. but i admit i AM biased against them & they totally freak me out. i don't care if i'm being bitchy but they are plain weird. please swim back to china for all i care.
darkness quickly steals the light
11:04 p.m.
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tmrw is a long day (full dress rehearsal)! but i guess i'm kinda hooked on the net, so i had to come online :P anyway, today was alright i guess. mainly after school we went to learn how to put stage make up & the colours and everything for syf. oh my real real stage make up is kinda scary man! like you draw the eyeliner so thick & you look freaky upclose. like someone going for a halloween party! yun hsiu used shun ting as the guinea pig. and i used wanzhen for eyeshadow.
still feeling super stressed. and mrs cheng was basically saying, if chinese & western can get gold with honours too, then the school can have some kinda holiday. since western is damn good & will most probably get it, it's all up to US! oh dear. cannot take it ):
anyways, after that i was bumming around school for about three hours. WOW i was super bored. super and super and duper! cos i was told there was an OG outing at 7 so i waited. but we were actually waiting for narean and yongkia to finish soccer & they finished near EIGHT PM. then we headed to coronation plaza. not bad our OG is still kinda, alive!
ate at prince. the food was ALRIGHT. haha OG19 is so funky (: had a great time laughing & eating. and we performed the exothermic reaction :D hahahahaha. yinghui & his hilarius sound effects. HAHA. and all the lame talk about power rangers, spongebob & mr bean! :D after eating went home. sat bus with melvin dillon & alywin. okay very very embarrassing at macritchie. needed to PEE badly. never mind i shall not elaborate. i'm beat!
no colours anymore
i want them to turn black
11:12 a.m.
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everybody scream! syf is on tuesday :/ i didn't feel the importance until today. okay yea super slow & retarded of me. but you know what! indian & malay dance got GOLD WITH HONOURS! congratulations to them. (: BUT omg you have no idea how much pressure that puts on us. the more i think about it, the slimmer the chances seem ): see, firstly the competition for chinese dance is UBER strong. e.g: hcjc, rjc & rv too! and we are competing with 65 secondary schools + 5 JCs. thats alot alot of teams. and we are one of the last ones going! by then the judges wld be super bored & stuff ): and and and, njc does not have a good rep for chinese dance? reputation plays a big part in the score too, well kinda!
i felt like crying. i mean gold with honours, wow. it's so prestigious & western dance is probably gonna get it too! cos their ballet is super good. and how if indian, malay, western all get it, but we don't. ): and i think we passed our peak alr. we reached our peak a few weeks ago. and it's been downhill ever since
people who watch us say we're good & neat. but that's because they are non-dancers & don't have the dancing eye. trust me, the judges are as sharp as umm, very sharp people! and every little thing matters. :/ stress stress!
i'm just so worried. if we don't get the honours i'll just faint & die.
the state of going under
08:51 a.m.
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yesterday we had our NJC dance party! :D things were really slow at first. but when it got dark it was better. a professional DJ was hired this time round, and there were lights & smoke. but somehow, i liked the first one better? i'm not sure. first intake people came back, it felt nice seeing those familiar faces
anyway i'm back in 05S10 :D most classes stayed the same anyways. (: our class more or less stayed together. except for alyssa & harland ): oh well. our new timetable sucks. TO THE CORE :/ like we end really late, 4.30, 5.20 and earliest at 2.50 wow that's some good quality shit man
umm okay more on the dance party! there was pizza everywhere. haha. and my og attacked me with water. so i was wet. duh. and phyl was my dancing khaki. we were doing some old routines & stuff (: oh i wish my reddies were there with me! we could do our routines. oh well. and they played some stupid april fool's prank which i think is ---- --- - ----- ----- --- ------ --------!
went to kap after that. hung around with the class & their OG. some of them were trying to eat pizza in macdonalds and kept getting caught. HAHA
today! i bought new ballet shoes omg i am so pleased! (: the shop has shelves & shelves of shoes. i think i'm obsessed or psycho, but seeing all those ballet shoes made me happy :D
Sometimes i feel
Like i am drunk behind the wheel
03:30 p.m.
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okay so lessons have started. BORING. omg, cos we have not got our classes yet, so we only have lectures. and since they have no seperate timetables for the different combis, we have SO many free periods. my god you know i went to school today for 12 hours, but only had two lectures. chem & econs. and econs was the intro lect with all the admin. and dance after school of course. this week is a waste of time!
had dance after like two weeks. OMG i was so so so so so so OFF. once my umbrella Flew away! haha like really. my gosh because i didn't grip tight enough and it just, umm yah. ): and another i got my timing like screwed. oh holyy.
OH NO i think i am in horrible deep shit. really. dead end. for once i can't talk to you
the night the lights went
09:21 p.m.
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I need this to get me through
A perfect hell
it's more to me than you ever will know
obsession has begun
now it's got a hold of me
I'm walking pollution who's drained by delusions
no chance that I could win
I need this to be myself
can't resist don't want to
believe it I know it's true
can't beat it don't want to try
down here where the rest of us fell
waste away nothing left to show
while I'm in this perfect hell
possessed by destruction
how did I get so low
believe me no one knows
sometimes I can't hold on
and no one can help me
I don't think I can make it through this
now it's got a hold of me
the less I do the more it makes no sense
on the verge of destruction I cave in to abduction
thin blood I'm bleeding my pulse won't stop racing
just as my heart explodes
too hard to not give in
I just don't feel the same
cause I'm the one to blame
sometimes I can't hold on
and no one can help me
it feels like I need some help
it's too late to save myself
or it's just in my head
Angels With Dirty Faces / Sum 41
08:56 p.m.
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a famous dancer (Diana Vishneva) once said: A person is born into the world with half a soul, and is on Earth to find his/ her other half.
that sounds nice. anyway today met up with 05S10! (: yay. things were bumpy though. poor xiu jing. hey girl cheer up. things will be fine yea? (:
first we went to Plaza, seems like that's our class hangout huh. then we moved to cine. couldn't find a movie to watch. then went to lucky plaza to play pool. as usual i didn't. in fact i went to the arcade! haha. jing & i won a few tickets & redeemed lots of lollipops for the whole class . haha.
trained back with krystle. met the family for dinner at j8. whatever
my heart's set at low
10:01 p.m.
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mmm main event today was station games. i played less than at ogl camp! cos we let the og play most of the time, until the numbers in the og became too pathetic. well i was so thirsty like at every single minute of today. no matter how much water i drank it never seemed enough. weird huh.
i guess that's called, umm dehydration. anyways, at the end of today i was SO drained. like i was flipping around in my flipflops. dang & we had to clean up the place. oh well i did sign myself up for this! it's fine i guess. AND hanyang kept attacking me with flour! i was all grey-haired after that! and of course white-ish everywhere. :/ but fun i guess. even people i didn't know in hanyang's og were helping him to attack me! golly
after that we had an og outing at KAP! oh god fast food, again! i think i ate enough to last me the whole year. my my. xiu jing was behaving like a mad woman as usual (: i'm dirty & bummed
I think I'll get out of here
Where I can run, as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear, you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill
this must be a bad trip
10:18 p.m.
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orientation! it was OKAY . mmm, started off like, dull. some talks, and everyone was like falling asleep!! mmm i wore my nj uniform today! haha. people thought i was an IP kid. oh golly. haha.
things were pretty dead the whole day. my OG was pretty unenthu, cos there were lots of second intakers! mass dance was fun though (: but OG session was very dreary, until we played captain's ball.
at least this was something to escape from lessons huh. lots of people just skipped ): oh well. hope tmrw will be better! pretty sure it will be
oh i'm still hoping so hard. D: Thinking 'bout your beauty
It makes me weep
I feeling hopeless in my home
I don't know what to do
I think I'm in love
obsession / frankie J
baby you're my sugar rush
08:13 p.m.
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so nj ain't that stingy after all! this morning mr koh announced that we had the whole day off (: that's good, however! they cld have told us that a TAD earlier. i mean we went to school for assembly, check our results then went off? hello, like what's the internet system for then? alright! so i got posted back to njc :D PHEW. went to KAP with 05S10 for what might be the last time. had more fast food :/ oh holyy. then we went to beauty world to buy school uniforms. oh my we were there like 40 minutes early. so we were waiting at this bench, hanging out & stoning and we didn't realise that during then everyone else was like queueing outside alr. so we ended up spending like another hour queueing. omg, after i tried on that uniform & put back my ij uniform i could only feel: AGH i love the blue pinafore.
trying desperately to soften the cardboard like uniform. orientation 2 tmrw! hope i get a fun OG (: heh
cause you're only almost here
06:52 p.m.
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i only get two more days in a sn pinafore! ): i think. cos after tuesday i will be required to wear the njc ( I HOPE ) uniform. no not that i like that grey elephant uniform. i hope to stay in nj.
the uniform is super THICK & super HOT. oh holyy. why? it is fireproof & waterproof. oh bless my soul now isn't that the best thing ever. i find it quite unnecessary. should there be a fire (touch wood) will my uniform really save my life?
i've spent the last three days at home, sleeping then eating. slacking & eating. watching tv & eating. on the net & eating. amazing!
and it makes me mad
and it makes me sad
05:24 p.m.
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i am supposed to use this free friday to do my ECONS ESSAY but i can't seem to get to it. read the question like, again & again but i'm too distracted to actually start writing anything econs-related. did my structured questions alr. attempted them rather. i watched slap her, she's french! when i lost my concentration. oh FUNNY, watching blondes & bimboes doing their thing. HAHA
i'm reading back my old blog entries. reading all those 'i miss sn' - 'i hate nj' kind. now i laugh. haha. not that i do not miss sn, nor do i love nj now. but i've definitely moved on to jc better now. sn is so passe, though it'll always be a part of me. nj is good too. cos of all the exciting stuff coming up
oh i can't wait to get back to school on monday! if i decide to go? well i don't wanna hand in my econs! ): but i do wanna go back.
Somebody pass my guitar
So i can look like a star
03:27 p.m.
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today was absolute FUN :D ogl camp was great! haha at least i liked it. got very tired though. 7 am sharp to 6.30 pm. almost 12 hours. wow. haha. mass dance is fun! but i can't rmb. cheering is fun! but my throat is a little soar. games are FUN. wet games are fun-ner! (:
i think station games did a great job. wet games were the ultimate. though being THAT wet was a little crummy :/
finally, a free day tmrw. nj-less ! not that i dislike nj. but it is the holidays after all. joy!
it's getting hectic everywhere
10:36 p.m.
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i am so MAD ): i went to trim my eyebrows today, but the lady practically SHAVED them off. oh holy, now i don't only have a balding head, i have bald eyebrows to match. JEEZ.
i've been reading the mediator by meg cabot. it's good, it's interesting. finally i'm reading something other than Harry Potter. i'm so porky. i've been looking in the mirror. and i'm getting more & more , not flexible. i'm totally stiff. holyy. like it actually hurts when i split now! and that totally sucks. i must sit there for a few minutes before i loosen up! normally (for my right leg at least) i can just plop down painlessly. how annoying. not like i've stopped stretching. i still do my stretching & penchees nightly.
i must salute you, for managing to break my heart without even knowing you've done so
Choke my voice, say goodnight
As the world falls apart
09:21 p.m.
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today i finally had my fill of sushi! :D yay! i've been waiting for so so so so long. (: i just realised how much i LOVE sushi ! went to sushi tei with my momma after dance. yummmmie! though terribly sinful. i ate so much! it was so funny cos there was this angmoh family next to me. they were so AMAZED by the sushi system. they said to the waitress: so i just take anything i want from the belt & then you look at the colour of my plates and charge me later? OHHHH . then throughout the meal the mother was like: i am SO fascinated i can hardly eat. i can't even eat i am just so fascinated by this system!! (HAHAHAHA). then the son was like: it's going so fast! slow down. it's just one plate after another. it's so fast!! (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA) interesting tourists :D then at the supermarket i saw these two models (i guess they were). they were SO tall, taller than the supermarket shelves! and they were caucasian naturally. with long hair! one was a brunette with super nice GREY eyes and very pretty. the other was blonde. both were wearing mini skirts, looking very very HOT! their legs were SO long and oh my gosh, i was so jealous. they were so gorgeously perfect.
anyways, i got to some work today. but so little, it's practically zilch. dance tmrw, again!
pick me up now
i need you so bad
09:10 p.m.
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today i watched CHEEROBICS! :D it was so nice (: i mean, some teams. magnum was as usual, awesome! so was the team from bangkok. but i must comment that magnum's routine was very similar to the bangkok's routine. mmm, curious! the sec school winner was NOT mgs! well finally, chong boon broke the chain (: nothing against mgs! i just though chong boon was really goooooood! and mgs was good too, but their stunts were not as cleanly executed. but who am i to say, i'm from st nicks. famous for its no-stunt routines. people say SN's cheer is just dancing with pom poms.
i went with xiujing! thank you girl for accompanying me (: i felt so bad cos she was so bored! haha. but i treated her to pizza after that! and she finally got her incredibles vcd :D we were with jean & loo too! haha xj is so sociable. by the end of the competition xj was alr hugging MY friends whom she just knew for merely 90 minutes. haha. :P
school tomorrow! dance. syf is so so so boring. i can't wait for it to be over. i wanna concentrate on council, IF i get in. thursday is elect's camp! :D i'm excited though it may be tough . hurrah!
i've heard that all before
08:32 p.m.
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last day of term! very ODDLY we still have to return to our PAE schools for the first three days of term 2. then start at our new schools thursday onwards. weird huh. anyways my class went out today. okay as usual not the whole class. in the first place like only 8 out of 26 people came for school today.
we went to plaza singapura. met some classmates there and we caught robots. it's pretty good actually! really really funny. haha. "it's a fusion of jazz & funk, it's Junk!" haha :D yea. the guys were laughing very loudly. a bit too loudly. haha
then we stood around and STONED. yes i realise S10 is really good at that. we stood in the middle of P.S. and just stared into space without talking. haha then the guard chased us out of P.S for standing around. whatever! and OMG the guard went up to alyssa and asked her if she was the teacher taking the rest of our class out or smth. HAHA
we walked to meridien. they wanted to play pool. but decided against it later. then headed to centerpoint to eat dinner. but i left to meet dinah! we watched lemony snicket!!!! :D i loved it! sunny is so darn adorable. and it is TOTALLY my kind of movie (: the slightly magical, and unreal type, with child actors! haha
e.g: Harry Potter duh!!!! Peter Pan!! (:
Still pushing that chance to try
10:07 p.m.
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school was alright today! i met xiu jing in town after school. all my girls abandoned me after PE. xj went to crash hcjc, and krystle & alyssa went ice skating! i was going to go hc with xj but i backed out. boy, am i a wimp! so i had to hang out with all the boys. wow especially melvin. i just get bullied without super xiujing to protect me
towning with xiu jing was fun! :D we had great heartfelt talks in long john's silver! (: haha. talked a lot. and i really appreciate that she trusts me. we walked around heeren & cineleisure. first time i entered all those act cute shops :D haha. xj ! ah lian! haha kidding (: oh no i broke my no fast food vow though! i hate being broke. like i was today ):
yesterday i had a major blonde relapse during OGL meeting! oh how bloody embarrassing. oh i shall not publicise the specific blonde action of mine. i have not been so utterly blonde since god knows when . ):
i don't think i mind, but i know there's just gonna be this pang of regret forever. but there's still the other hopelessly hopeless scary case.
the familiar feeling of dread & regret
09:25 p.m.
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today we had our syf rehearsal at kallang. i thought it was great! it felt quite fruitful. or maybe it was just being on a stage again that made me feel so good (: but in school practising in the gym, i felt like crap. in fact i think we were crap. haha. cos i dunno, cannot jump, cannot stretch, cannot da shou jin hua ! but after we reached kallang everything was better.
BOO!
over my head better off dead
08:39 p.m.
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Silence is ringing in my head
And it goes
I'm falling deeper in this hole, to disaster
And it goes
It's dragging on
It's a never ending story!
Stuck on repeat
Not much longer I'll be dead
So just forget me
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
On and on
And I just feel helpless
how long will this take to wear off?
On and on
When will I get through this?
Welcome to my own down and out
I'm gripping what I thought control, was falling faster
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
On and On
And I just feel helpless
how long will this take to wear off?
On and on
When will I get through this?
Welcome to my own down and out
I'm wearing thin
I can't stop these walls
They keep caving in
It's gone too far
Where's my mind?
Why can't time stop fear this paranoia?
and it starts with me!
It's a never ending story!
And it starts with me!
Hyper-Insomnia-Para-Condrioid / Sum 41
08:46 p.m.
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): i don't even wanna talk about today man. okay actually i do, i wanna rant. okay my council interview today. one word: OHMYGOD. i handled it as well as a 3-month old baby would. i was speechless half the time and the other half i wasn't, i stuttered, stumbled and muttered three-word answers. my answers were stupid as well, totally not in my favour. oh god i am so spastic & retarded.
they were totally using dance as a weapon to attack me. saying stuff like: since you're so passionate about dance then why you wanna join council? since you like leading, go join dance exco, why come to council? i could have slapped every single one of their faces. ask me these type of questions for what. i wanna join council means i wanna join lah! it was not an interview, it was an interrogation
conclusion: i will never get a job because i will not pass the job interview. and my lack of answering-impromptu-questions skills puts another reason on the list of -why i will never be a beauty queen- joining other reasons like: fat, short, ugly & totally unglam! not that i wanna be a beauty queen. totally zero intention. whatever i am not expecting to get past this round AT ALL. i am so so so screwed.
nothing's going my way
09:01 p.m.
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damn. i dunno ): my results. they were not bad, but definitely not good. yea i got my single digit. but i guess i really expected much more. like i mean i got exactly same as prelims. so no improvement there. ): AND my english was terribly disappointing. combined humans was a total surprise. when i was looking at that results slip my jaw was hanging out like crazy man.
and you have to count it yourself. i kept recounting & recounting. but i must say i was relieved by my results. but still... HAII ): i was really just standing there, feeling nothing. i can stay in njc, hopefully, most probably. but i just was not happy for some reason. people broke out in tears all around me. and all i could do was try to offer them some comfort.
well thank you God, for answering my prayers. and to all those who are not so happy, cheer up. this really isn't the end of the world. though i know if i were the one sad, this piece of advice would mean nothing but crap to me. i think i should be very contented with what i have.
and there's the other problem. what's gonna happen now huh. what am i to do.
tell me what to feel
09:30 p.m.
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i just realised my comp's date is set all wrong. so for the past dunno how many entries the date has been totally WRONG. okay so from today onwards it is accurate! had dance in the morning. it was really tiring today! at the end of the three hours all of us were soaked in our own sweat. EWW. :/ and today my umbrella died. R.I.P ): it survived for so long, but i guess it had to go someday. after that met alyssa on 157! we went to toa payoh hdb hub to watch danceworks! (: cjc and sajc were there too! saw ele, da, pamela, claud, xiao wei etc etc. i must say cjc rocked the house down! all the girls were super hot! haha. nice outfits (: the competition was quite strong! lotsa cool hiphop teams. especially the winner, WOW omg really cool (:
the whole thing lasted like four hours! since alyssa ditched me i went to look for xiu jing & krystle! sat with xiu jing mostly (: honestly njc was not bad. just that the competition was super fierce.
monday is creeping nearer! ): i can't wait, but then again don't wanna know. i wanna do well so badly ! i mean if i get a double digit, all my mugging and effort i put in last year will just go down the drain ): okay i will keep praying.
held in a moment of eternity
07:29 p.m.
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SO when exactly are results coming out! last i've heard no longer on friday ): it's on monday now. come on, not that i am expecting super good news. but i just want the wait to END and know where i will probably be for the next two years! OH MAN.
i'm so caught up
06:23 p.m.
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OMG my mom... damn her ! totally. because i intend to run for student council. or at least i am applying first. and the thing is in june we planned to go to America for a month. but IF i do get elected, i will be unable to go for at least the first two weeks. so i told her she can go ahead and i'll travel my own. then she was whining that i was so troublesome & that shit. then she finally exclaimed: FINE! you go & apply lah! i hope you don't get it! and she said it in that kind of tone. OMG WTH luckily i was sitting at the back of the car cos i was cursing under my breath and rolling my eyes like crazy. omg see , you see what kind of mother i have. and people wonder why i hate her. x(
so anyway, P.E was quite a killer. we did grand stand running 8 rounds. it's really , bad.. cos u run up & down the stairs alot. and i was really walking though. but the alternative was running 8 rounds in the scorching sun . have no idea why pple chose that over stairs.
dance after that. i have a reserve! she's so pretty & she learns real fast. yay maybe i can withdraw and she can just take my part. haha. okay CHOY i hope my results are good enough so i can stay in NJ and i would not need a reserve to replace me! :/ talking about results, okay i really rather not talk about it.
If only we could live twice
08:19 p.m.
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went to SAJC fun fair today. it was kinda boring. i was there for like three hours ! and not to mention it was mega hot. the weather was steaming. i walked around in circles and circles. like i was supposed to meet dora & loreen at 12. then on my way there dora said change to 1. !! so.. i was like, omg how how? cos i was alr at harbour front. then i saw zhi hui & her friends, so i just tagged along.
after a while a long while, dora & loreen finally came. saw lots of people! like STELLI, sera, dinah, joette, xiao wei, jacq, jia min, tess, wilson, shaun p too, etc etc had to go home after that. i think the mrt lines in singapore are so cool. very convenient. haha okay that took me long to notice. my MOM is being a real , pest! ):
one last dance to our first song
08:37 p.m.
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i don't know why but today i felt especially stressed. by the end of the day i was pretty brain dead and stuff. as if i used my brain more today ,though i really didn't. and PE was like, leg strengthening. we did 20 tuck-jumps, 20 crunches, 20 squats. three sets of that. plus three laps. my thigh muscles are aching now and thats really not good! cos it's my outer thighs, not inner thighs ): i'm in a large dilemma. everything, SIGH. anyway one good thing that has happened so far is that cheer has been revived in st nicks!! :D and dominique is my successor (: i am so glad my fellow yeeeaaa member is reddie cheer capt! haha. i can't wait for cheer to start then i can go back and all that :D am i hallucinating?
You've got the key to my heart in your hands
06:44 p.m.
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it's vday! and ms valencia tjitra totally made my day. i came home pretty bummed from P.E. & dance and i saw an envelope with my big fat name on it! i ripped it open & saw a sweet vday letter from valen! thanks dear (: really sweet. nothing beats getting something from a good old friend, no matter how small that thing is. she could have given me a piece of tissue (like in harry potter!) and i would still treasure it :D
anyways, the vday spirit in njc is no where near the spirit in sn! i miss the scene on vday morning, and it is slightly dim as the sun isn't even out yet. and everyone is already scooting around delivering flowers & candy! and omg, it's priceless! haha. but i guess i can make do with the chocolates & sweets i got
gosh this is horrid! cny & vday straight in a row. can you imagine all the sugar we are consuming! GASP! anyway i must talk about xiu jing and her corny sweets! she gave this funny love sweet that had a different message inside each wrapper! most of them started with True love is... russell got one that made zero sense. it said: who eats watermelon. who is helpful. UHHH wth! and the rest were typically smth like: true love takes away all aches & pains, love is the happy time of life, and old fool is a good fool. or some crappy english! haha
i'm living it day by day
08:13 p.m.
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i did the stupidest thing AGAIN today! ): i accidentally erased all my inbox messages for the second time. i hate it when that happens. i am so damn upset with my stupid fingers that pressed the -delete- button! the school gave us a surprise half day today ! :D haha we were let off at 11.40. how totally super duper pointless cos they could have just called the whole day off, i only had like three periods :/ anyways, went to town with PART of the class after that. went to plaza sing. what an interesting bus ride . heh. my bag was super heavy the whole time ): then after walking around alot, we met PART of the senior class in cafe cartel. a few of us shared a HUGE ice cream! it was like, 10 scoops of ice cream, and sprinkled with bits of COOKIES. and how terribly sinful. melvin just had to remind me how fattening it was. and he made me VERY jealous , GRR.
anyways, i have to emphasise what a pathetic amount of ang bao i have received over the past two days! i went to this fella's house and he did not even give! he was a rich dude lah. i mean, he's the host and he did not even give. and all the other rich dudes floating around pretended not to see the kids. they could like play black jack and bet a hundred bucks and happily give the cash away but they can't be bothered to pack a little red packet. curses- not that i am THAT money-faced, i know times are bad, but WHAT THE HELL.
i hate to imagine the amount of calories i have consumed in the past few days. cny goodies are so damn sinful!
curse me inside
07:10 p.m.
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yay it's the lunar new year! today was the cny concert and our chinese dance item was an ABSOLUTE SUCCESS :D everyone had great comments, and said it was the best item. and it felt so so good to see that everyone liked it (: and yes, i did not screw up my pair dance! joy.
so anyways, i met my class at the parade square after my futile attempts to xie zhuang. the lousy school make up refused to get off my face. so i looked like a panda with the smudged eyeliner around my eyes. then there was a little pot luck & all that stuff. i must say that cny celebration in njc is MUCH funner than sn. haha. maybe it's just different thats why. i mean i've been having mass, and orange-blessing, and sing-songing, and performing for the past 10 years. so i guess something different is nice. i must say that xiu jing looked REALLY good! how pretty (:
after that went to town and met neek. we ate pasta, then went to catch Shall We Dance? yes a bit late, but i guess it's okay. i don't really wanna learn ballroom dancing, too slow & boring. i don't mind latin salsa. the faster kind (: maybe, someday! then we trained back together
saw valerie, felicia in the train. saw hui too! just finished reunion steamboat. how, traditional. TOMORROW i can wear my new awesome clothes! :D
holding my last breath safe inside
08:25 p.m.
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oh today we got a sneak peak at our syf costume! it looks bad at first, but once you put it on, it's actually pretty nice! (: i had to sample it. haha.
cny eve tmrw. performing! hooderay. i can get one dance off my back. then horizon, then syf. oh well. i can't ever rmb interesting stuff that happens in school! too long ago. haha. okay
my once pleasant dreams
08:14 p.m.
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wow i spent so much money today! haha. i feel kinda guilty :P okay $182 on three articles of clothing. is that alot? okay lah, like $60 on an average per article. mmm i bought like the nicest skirt in the world! from mango $75 :D it's their new spring 05 range, it's GREEN. and surprisingly nice! i usually do not get green clothes. but this skirt is super duper unique & nice. it's pixie-ish and it really reminds me of tinkerbell (: and i also bought a denim mini from forever 21 $58. it's okay , not exceptional. but i had to buy some stuff. and only ONE top. from mango again $49. i guess my mom was in a good mood. haha.
i was very bummed out somehow. slept till there was dance. i am doing fan now. it's rather fun, but i cannot open & close the fan properly. how retarded is that. and dance from 9-5 tmrw. oh my gosh and they don't even pay us. what the hell.
like a pattern, like a routine. everything just happens the same way. so why bother
i must be cursed
10:24 p.m.
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I WENT OUT WITH ELEANOR ONG TODAY. oh she makes me so happy. :D we had a great super duper ooper fantastic time, right! (: we caught up like crazy. haha. i met her at far east around 5. then we took sucky neos. haha. cos the machine has two screens for designing. and we were waiting stupidly at the wrong one. by the time we discovered the time almost ran out alr! freak. and the machine was right at the front of the store, so the screen with our faces was like so big and facing the outside and everyone who walked past could see. WAHH
haha then we went to eat at this japanese place. we were both super broke. so we ate the student's meal & haha we felt so awful & broke. then we went to take another set of neos. at the NICE machine! whee (:
i love my exaye deep down in my heart!! school was , fun? haha PE was totally slack today. and friendly ghost! HAHA. thanks xiu jing (:
chain of fools
08:54 p.m.
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ouch i think i hurt my right lower back. it hurts when i walk/ sit. anyways, cny concert rehearsal today. we got our costume and ARGH it's really gross. you look like a GOLDFISH when you put it on. literally, omg! it's orange & gold. and there's a little tail and it looks scaly and we should just wiggle on stage and pretend to be fish man. i wanted to jump into the pond haha
my parents are insensitive & irritating. whatever really. they are so so so annoying. they keep saying i am not grateful enough and i don't say thank you enough. what the bloody hell x(
oh please don't fail. don't let me screw up again.
It's an ongoing nightmare
08:48 p.m.
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today! haha, went back to sn. (: umm, after school my class & i initially went to paint banner. but dinah came, so dinah, wailin & their friend and me cabbed down to sn. haha. i sneaked a peep at the modern dance. no offence, but it's not that nice. just saying compared to the last syf, this one isn't that great. and i can't believe they disallow the seniors to WATCH the dance. that's why i had to be so sneaky. like we will copy their syf?! come on it's modern , and mine is chinese. and it's not like there's anything NEW to copy cos it's like a carbon copy of the old one, minus the nice music. WHATEV-
anyways, i am so glad i met leanne, stellina, loo, ada and etc etc whoever else. and i love talking to leanne haha, about cuhote & pretty cute.
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.
jewel / foolish games
i wonder why i never noticed
08:05 p.m.
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Once again, I'm caught in there
I don't wanna lose another year
I get up
I don't wanna lose another year
And there is nowhere left for me to run
All messed up, I was cheated
You went and used me up and kept me down
Now what the hell did I know
Knowing what I know now
I wouldn't go and change a thing
Oh what the hell did I see
Blinded by beauty, go on let it fade away
It took me so long to rid my fear
You're out of reach and I'm out of here
And I'm completely fallen
I don't wanna lose another tear
You seem so far when we are near
I'm out of speech and I'm out of here
And I'm completely fallen (completely fallen)
Get on through this
I can almost touch the other side
I'll survive
I've been through it
As long as faith and hope is on my side
Now what the hell did I know
Knowing what I know now
I wouldn't go and change a thing
Oh what the hell did I see
Blinded by beauty, go on let it fade away
It took me so long to rid my fear
You're out of reach and I'm out of here
And I'm completely fallen
I don't wanna lose another tear
You seem so far when we are near
I'm out of speech and I'm out of here
And I'm completely fallen (completely fallen)
Completely Fallen / Julie
09:21 p.m.
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today was great! we had road run (3.9km) and it was not as bad as the last time! haha but a little kek sim. :/ anyways! no lessons cos we ran, and had cheering competition & prize giving. woohoo LIGNUM came in first overall for the races! amazing :D for once i am in a winning house.
then we went to kap for a lignum lunch but it ended up being a S10 lunch. hung around macs for a while then walked to bukit timah plaza. watched the guys play pool for a while, then some of us headed to jacqueline's house first! OMG it is a palace ! it is so HUGE & gorgeous & just, wow wow wow! i was gaping at the sight of its majesty. all of us were super sua ku and were totally in awe! haha
we watched the princess diaries 2 in her mini theatre! dang it's boring compared to the first one. then we started on euro trip at first, but it was too, haha R(A) and xiu jing was freaking out. uhh! so we switched to the hot chick. second time, but damn hilarious anyways! haha we were all laughing like crazy.
started the bbq after that. LOTS of food as usual. and i took lots of photos!! after people finished eating in general, we started dunking people. david was the first to kena then regina. then alot alot of people. haha. i stayed DRY!! cos i held on to my camera and they didn't wanna dunk me if not my camera would get wet. and plus i was wearing white. and then the dry people went to hide in the mini theatre and locked the door. haha. went home around 10.15 all in all, the junior-senior bbq was great! 04S10 & 05S10 rocks! :D
Forever scarred in heaven
11:05 p.m.
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Know all about, yeah 'bout your reputation
Lovin' you, yeah, isn't really something I should do
Might be a mistake, A mistake I'm makin'
Lovin' you, yeah isn't really something I should do
I should try to run but I just can't seem to
wednesday ! my slack day (: haha. but i hate cultural mapping. f.y.i we go out to the bukit timah area and EXPLORE it. :/ it's very tiring & boring! and plus the weather is all sucky & hot & humid . ): left early for dance. i had to tie my hair into TWO buns . EGADS. it was spastic & retarded. RAH how can that person look like that person ! peck ying is BLIND. no no. haha okay i realised i am always talking about people looking like people.
i told myself not to let this happen all over again. i did not want to suffer again like i did last year. but i did let it happen. or rather i let nothing happen. no one is to blame but me. i can't stand myself, what the hell is wrong with me.
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are.
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah
I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
But what you're givin' I am happy to be takin'
'Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're somethin' I should do without
They don't know what goes on when the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you yeah
I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
'Cause every time I run you're the one I've run to
Can't do without what you do to me,
I don't care if I'm in too deep yeah hey-yeah
The Right Kind Of Wrong / Leann Rimes
07:58 p.m.
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i'm so shagged. i hate PE ): it's so tough. today we did some running all over the stairs, grandstand and that kinda crap. all the girls cheated one round. gosh and the teacher said: today is gonna be light. can you imagine heavy pe then! ):
anyways, had dance after that. I MADE A DISCOVERY. HAHA. but i cannot say. HOHO. the whole day in school was super slack today. we had so many many free periods! cos physics teacher didn't come. and chem too. and everyone was just slacking / doing work. we spent some time in the student's lounge. yes njc student's lounge actually actually functions, and well too. unlike sn's lounge. there is a POOL table in nj's lounge. that's cool! only problem is i don't play :/ haha. but it's nice, just really really stuffy & hot
i've got not much hw cos i did it all in school alr. BORED. i miss you leanne on my feet ): no one dares to sit on my feet now! wooo someone kinda looks like someone! and it's not the same as the one i was talking about last time. HAHA
the last thing i need now
08:43 p.m.
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yesterday was awesome fun! went to angel's house and played with her friend's puppies. omg they were so cute. liggy & milkball! they are a mix of long-haired chihuahua & dachshund. great breeding! then we headed for thomson plaza & met gerry there. bought groceries & hung around. went back to angel's house. raided her DVDs and decided to watch A Cinderella Story. i thought it was alright. maybe it's because i like hilary duff went for the horizon performance at night. that was not the fun part by the way. it was not very nice :/ like, disappointing and a waste of my money! ):
well the fun part started when i went home and i first went to angel's house. then angel and i went to hui's house to start bbqing first. those guys are so sweet they waited for me to come back to start the bbq. so we started bbqing at TEN pm only! haha we were still eating at midnight and all. super fun (: went back to gerry's house. she taught us how to play bridge. wonderful! now i know :D haha finally. but it's addictive and i'm not too good at it. you see i am a zero-strategy kinda person! and haha haha
slept around 4.30 or 5 a.m. can't rmb. either way it was late. i've got some nasty eyebags now :/ we ate a hearty but unhealthy breakfast/ branch actually. it consisted of black pepper FRIES, chicken WEENIES, fried EGGS and PIZZA . wow right! we ate & played bridge at the same time. haha. then gerry came to my house and watched remember the titans with me! it was really nice & touching & righteous and sweet :D
okay bummed around at home. uploaded some pictures. but i have yet to title them. dance tmrw. YAWNS. it's mighty early and in bukit batok or some funny B ulu place. bullcrap
a state beyond repair
09:56 p.m.
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okay i have to update about yesterday. reached home near to midnight so i could not update. umm we had our TRAIL ROAD RUN. boy it was torture! haha, okay not that horrible but just bad lah ): 3.9 km! thats almost 10 rounds. for someone who is as un-atheletically inclined as me, it was really hell. D: but it did not feel like 4 k at all. felt like 2.4 maybe it's because we ran out of the school. but after that i was aching everywhere!
had a long day till 4.30. went home first to bathe and rest up. then at night i went to david's house to meet the rest of the class. just ate there, watched american idol! WAHAHA. okay i was not focusing much. the guys were all jamming, playing their ELECTRIC GUITARS and such. wow i must say i was impressed. haha had to leave halfway. fetched a whole lot of people here and there and everywhere. thats why it took like one hour to go home. alrights i better go do some work! math is FUN
i don't wanna go through this again
12:18 p.m.
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school was fine. i had many many free periods today. mainly because i do not take chem. like i had only three periods. the rest were free. how boring cos i was in the library & i forgot to bring my ipod. so i ended up reading harry potter! haha yes again :D i had dance today. actually it was the third day in a row. but dance is good, because dance is exercise. omg the amount of food i eat is :/ i mean they give us so many breaks, and the food in the canteen is good. and so i just keep eating & eating. SHEESH. so anyway, nothing much lah. after dance went to meet some of my classmates in cineleisure's long johns. wah there's someone that really looks like someone (in nj & sn) HAHA. it's so so weird. that single thread of hope seems to be getting thinner
the ghost of a good thing
09:56 p.m.
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OMG i had the worse day imaginable ): lets see, i've got the dna of the S10 guys on my bag :/ EWW! you see we were doing a cheer and my bag was on a chair near the guys and after the cheer we saw SPECKS of spit on my pretty satin purple nike bag. my heart.. PIANGed! :/
okay then, my hairband broke. and then, -beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep- whatever ): i just do not feel good. P.E was alright. the indoor stuff is much worse than running. i rather run. then dance & ouch again :/ dance was very slack though.
i guess you don't know i'm hurting this bad. the situation is getting worse by the day.
do you even know you met me
08:28 p.m.
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Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm falling even more in love with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'm falling even more in love with you
There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm falling even more in love with you
Just hanging by a moment
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you
Hanging by a moment / Lifehouse
10:09 p.m.
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TODAY i went back to sn :D oh jesus it was pleasantly pleasing! i ate orange bowl! and it was so spicy. we were all not used to it, cos the food in njc is NOT spicy at all! haha
met some teachers & friends! neek's mom gave me a lift to bishan. met S10 (very few) in P.S. and ate dinner at burger king. haha. oh gosh today in school i ate a WHOLE CHOC X DRUMSTICK . and i just ate a chocolate waffle. pooooor yee shiang. hoho. lessons & such were alright. i really pray that my Os results are fine. this is so, uhh irritating. today in school kept getting reminded of the horrible-ness of it all ):
surprisingly i am not that bothered
running away is easier
10:12 p.m.
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today we had PE and we took height and weight. apparantly i did not grow at all. but i do not believe the chart ): i sorely refuse to. and the weighing scale is awesome. it put me as at least 2 kg lighter i think! haha. anyways, the weirdest thing is that i am physics rep for my class. and physics is like my worst sub ever. my physics tuition teacher is gonna laugh his ass off man. :/ and.. ah! i don't wanna be PHYSICS rep (stares at xiujing, krystle & alyssa) i mean.. ): eww just eww lah
i went to cjc to meet janice today. haha actually i only went to the bus stop outside. oh man i felt so scared. like all the cjc people around me were giving me the : you don't belong here you njc person- look. :/ ? haha oh well! i wanna buy the njc pe shirt! it's not nice but haha, it's only 6 bucks.
oh tmrw is friday. finally the end of the week! (: lessons are boring, but still fun. like being with my class is fun. awesome. ele! valen! anthea! i miss you guys tonnes and tonnes and OMG no words can describe ):
i wanna take back all my stupid actions
07:01 p.m.
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oh my gosh thank god for busybody friends in s10. now i really really know. okay shit i really feel like crap now. my judgement is that bad huh. okay whatever, i had dance today. i learnt that i should be proud of chinese dance ! we are a great team & the people & talent rock ! we are NOT inferior to western dance in any way (:
thanks ELEexaye for listening to me , uh, whine ): okay i am really really OKAY now. i am just very disgusted with myself & everyone else and jesus! i need to eat chocolate ): aye i think i will finally go back to sn on friday. i NEED to see certain people. this will end now. i really want to change but it just got so much harder
i can go on bleeding forever
08:49 p.m.
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ELE EXAYE - thanks for texting. oh our horrid horrid boats ): haha.
anyways, school was alright i guess. lessons are boring. my brain is mighty rusty ! like i was doing my math tutorial and HAHA i can't really do anything. and it's all like secondary school stuff. oh poo and i can't get my momentum going. oh whatever
after school went to KAP macs again, to eat & do homework. like OMG we're mugging alr. went with my class, krystle, xiujing and so on.
oh holy momma i think i am going back to sn on friday! :D haha how thrilling (: oh and auditions for western dance tmrw! though i won't be able to join because i am alr in chinese ): poo
maybe i miss you after all
09:11 p.m.
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There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me
Do you know that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away?
So can you come and make them disappear?
Make them disappear and we can stay
So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace
Of the person
The person that I need
Do you know that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away?
So can you come and make them disappear?
Make them disappear and we can stay
Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear
There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Gonna search through every face
Without a single trace
Of the person
The person that I need
Do you know that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away?
So can you come and make them disappear?
Make them disappear and we can stay
Disappear / Hoobastank
06:24 p.m.
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went back to sng today! OOOH i really felt this surge of warm air when i stepped into the canteen. okay maybe not, cos that would just be freaky. but i felt 'warmer'. HOHO. especially when i saw my cheerleaders cheering. (: AWW. oh man trust me on this, it is so good to see ur stuff in action , and when you're not doing it! and you just see others doing it (:
AND i saw! anthea, sara, stelli, lea, mel, dom, jean, loo, ele, valen, mich, grace, dinah, swei, lisa, ocp, neek and prob more! HAHA i am so freaking glad man (:
happy birthday dinah! we went out for her birthday. ate at nooch. hung around. and took neos! i had to leave very soon after. met parents at yck station. went to some fella's party. BORING. was an old people's thing. ): yawns i actually resorted to playing with FIVE YEAR OLD little girls to kill my boredom.
i wanna ride with you
10:57 p.m.
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oh hurray orientation is over. okay today was easily the funnest day. well the last day usually is. we had bbq in the evening. they provided makeshift bbq pits which were really pathetic. well we did not really eat much. there was a dance party going on at the same time! so we were dancing most of the time. they kept playing the mass dance music. okay the only time i actually did mass dance, properly.
yesterday we had war wet games. that was fun too. like just went around shooting people with water guns. but the guns were way to small
oh holyy! st nicks tomorrow! :D i am so glad so pleased so happy! i'm meeting ele exaye (: to talk & gossip & do the stuff we haven't done since forever. and then dinah's birthday thing. oh i will get to see anthea! and the cheerleaders. and everyone (:
i keep bringing myself back
10:57 p.m.
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well i guess today was not that bad. because we had cca fair! (: got to walk around with xiuyi & meet up with some non-OG pple. mmm it was nice and hot! like the weather was steaming. after the days of rain, it was nice. i signed up for western dance too. i really really wanna join that. but i am alr in chinese. oh POO ):
whatever. ele! i miss you! haha your msges throughout the day were so warm & fuzzy :D anyways went to King Albert Park's macdonalds after school for dinner. played mind boggling games which i could not figure out most of the time. :/ and told jokes. i don't know why but the year twos seem so much older than us. or maybe just me. and i feel so much younger than my juniors. somehow! i miss yeeeaaa!
stuck between hell and high water
09:30 p.m.
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i am officially suffering from the lack-of-sng disease ): i am going back for cca fair no matter what! the whole i day i kept thinking of the people like YEEEAAA. i even thought of the people i hate & totally detest & i would much rather be in sn with all those awful pple!
like njc is not awful, it is just ME inflicting boredom & the negativity on myself ): like the seniors are really good & innovative. like our theme this year is La Famiglia which is a mafia theme! then our houses are all names of famous mafia families. it's creative & stuff. and the stuff they give in the orientation package is cool. BUT i don't know. doh.. and i am in ORANGE house. like how totally UNCOOL is that. orange is so, orange! ): i wanna be in red. at least being in something close to my heart (RED house forever rocks no matter where) would help!
and the games are cool. like really different & not too cliched. but i just do not enjoy them. i guess i am just really having alot of trouble adapting. like if they were to do the same EXACT games in sn i would have a million times more fun ): and it's not helping that no one close to me came to njc. my class is okay. the people are alright. but i just really need someone like valen, or ele or anyone i have like cried too before. these type of bonds cannot be built in two years trust me. i'll never find another anthea or leanne ):
i am just looking forward to saturday so much. no matter how ugly-ly painted sng is (VERY) i still wanna go back & see the sea of blue pinafores. i don't even mind hugging mrs cheong (EURGH!) yea i am that desperate. i was really hoping some other certain people would have been in the same class as me.
well i guess i'll get used to it. i'm gonna go think, about stuff now. think. ):
Sometimes I can hate you everyday
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
But only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky said to me
I'm learning to fall with no safety net
07:23 p.m.
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ooh i have to update! not because i had a good day, i just have a lot to talk about :D mmm , well njc wasn't great. i was not expecting anything great. but they said it was just first day, because there were alot of talks and they were so YAWN . well i did not literally yawn, but i was terribly superly bored!
i must say i absolutely LOVE the canteen though. there is roti prata & wanton mee & bubble tea & coke light ! (: mmm, well the school has certain practices which are funny. the male teachers have a uniform? they were all wearing a white long sleeved shirt with the same tie (nj tie?)! or maybe it was just for today. and oh, the cheers & mass dance suck.
SNG girls! our cheers are much nicer!! AND our family dance is whoa! really nice compared to their mass dance. pls treasure our family dance because it is a very nice mass dance. you will understand next time cos mass dances in JCs are never ever nice. they are all LAME. ):
oh tmrw is supposed to be better! cos we know our class & OG grps and there are wet games & all that bullshit :D i like nationalJC anyways! NATJC :D oh i did not go back to sng today after all ): cos they only let us off at 4.45! i was really looking forward to it! another day then.
my heart keeps falling faster
06:34 p.m.
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i am so excited! first day of school tmrw :D haha! that's a first. well it's probably gonna be mighty boring, admin stuff & talks & that kinda thing. BUT i am going back to sng with valen, swei etc.! oh so exciting! i can't wait i miss sng alr (:
i had horizon today. we choreographed the cny dance a little. i am using chopsticks as my props. OH HOLY another absurd prop. first lanterns, hankerchiefs, umbrellas, now chopsticks. chinese dance sure is ODD. :/ we have to perform on the first day of cny, maybe. oh well, i have no relatives in singapore to visit anws! then we did barre & center with the company members. ooh it's kinda difficult. but it was fun cos they did not teach us how, and we just had to follow. so that was an excuse to slack. and the center is just like conditioning. lots of abdominal work outs & stuff!
alrights, i am gonna go , enjoy the rest of my holiday (:
There's nothing left to analyse
06:12 p.m.
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a new blog for a new year! :D i love anything bling! happy 2005 everyone. may this year be a peaceful one (: no war, no terrorists, no anything bad!
my new year resolutions:
love, natgrintalie
1. take my pre-elementary RAD exam & pass with distinction
2. cope well with JC
3. enrol in SBA or any other professional company like, Ecnad(that means actually passing the auditions!)
4. help SN REDDIES clinch first place (if there is cheer)
5. stretch & condition diligently everyday for at least 1 hour (includes arch, back, hips, legs, abs)
6. achieve a 180 kua split & get a nicer arch
7. get rid of jiggly wobbly fats around tummy & thighs
8. go through more pointe shoes
9. READ HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE IN ONE DAY AND CUT MYSELF OFF FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD, TOTALLY!
10. learn how to let go
a new year signals a fresh start. leave everything behind
12:37 p.m.
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